A simple blessing..
Tuesday, May 4, 2010 @ 9:16 PM
for someone...
i most respected and look up on, hope you have a safe journey and take good care of yourself. i'm so sorry but i will not go send you off, tried not to see them. but i know all my prayers for you, God will help me take good care of you. he heard my prayer. when you experience some errors or things that bothers you, stay relax ok. cause when you are angry or stress up is very scary. don't be too cool ok.
5 months will be over very soon, maybe you don't even feel like coming back to singapore. anyway, enjoy the trip and hope to see you soon. i don't think you will loss contact with us as there also have internet. take lots of photo ^^
good bye, see you soon
and take good care!!!
Disappointment..
Sunday, May 2, 2010 @ 11:27 PM
It is disappointing when you see comment like that. lets all reflect and think before you actually say something and hurt someone so badly. go ask around my close friends, if you even got the potential to find out who they are. go ask them how i treat my friends. dun get disappointed when you get good comment about me. because i can swear i treat all my friends with all my heart and i got no regrets as i never hurt them before. if you want to copy, go ahead, i'm not scare. and i don't bother at all. what rights you have when you don't lead a life exactly like mine, do you experience whatever i have been through? you don't, so just shut up and stay out of my business. whatever i do, do you see it in your eyes? or you are blind and deaf, if you are, why you cannot shut up, stop barking like a dog. do you know why i don't bother about doing those things anymore? because even if i did, you will say i never or you will just say things that you like.
just for example, cca day. do you know i got work and lecture on that day. do you know because i think aikido family is so important to me that because of that i sacrifice both my work and lecture for that day. just because i want to go, just because i want to go and support the team and help out abit at the booth. but what i get in return, is there a thank you? i was just going to the library for awhile to check whether my module elective voting and choosing survey is out already or not and when i got back. what i get? "where have you been? you know we are so busy clearing the booth and you never help out?" so i go there is just to help you clear up and booth. ok even so, can't you just say thank you? or you are just too dumb to say it.
mat cleaning, the last mat cleaning i was not there because i got lesson, didn't i told you so already, so i'm not there. i went to SAR at 3pm to see whether you all finish already or not, if not finish i will help, but when i reach, no one is there, all the mats are gone. so is it my fault for not cleaning the mats? if i do not want to clean the mats, i will not even go all the way to SAR to check whether you all finish already or not.
everytime when i am there, i will always help out with laying the mats and setting up the mats. unless i'm late or i was doing other things, even if so, i will ask whether need to wipe mats or not, then i will go down and help, if no need to wipe why i still need to go down. everything is done already, please recall, one raining evening, all of you all are at SAR, i went down early from home, it is raining and i still go ok. ok thats not the main point, the main point is, you all are having fun at SAR, i alone at sport complex looking after all the mats that are left there, they are not even lay or set. so i stay there and look after, after a long time then i see you all walk to sport complex, then i start to help to set the mats. ok unless you got no brain, if not i really don't know what to say. don't just see what you see is true and don't bother asking or finding out the truth. the worst thing is, you are shouting at someone for no reason and you hurts the person feeling. last time when the senior ask you all to clean mats, you all got go? if you cannot remember. i teach you how to, go see the photos in facebook. if you dun see yourself in there, means you never go help. and if you never go help, then you better shut up. CAUSE I GOT GO! whatever. some people are just... you know...
anyway if you do not know me, and you don't even talk to me that often, may i know how much you know me? so you don't have the right to insult or even comment about me.
life now sucks totally, everyday have to go Sentosa to study, travelling time 1 hour 30 mins, if late means die. haix... i don't think i will go school training that often as i can't really rush back on time, maybe go outside training instead. just finish LRM orientation camp, it was fun and memorable, i know the yr 1 really enjoy!!! GOOD JOB PEOPLE!!! problem and problem and more problems, but i know all these will end. i just hope i can find back justice... started working at Esplanade, My Humble House, as a waitress. learning fine dining, good that i have future plans. haha now i'm not scare of SSM haha :P
my darlings and dearest will know how much i love and care for them, thank you girls and thanks for your supports. you all best me well and i know you will know that i'm not those type of people that they mention.
sometimes people are just too innocent or never think at all.
what are friends for? what are true friends? (i'm not saying you all my darling girls!!!)
for those i respected, i still respect, and hope you will have a safe journey and good luck in your studies and work there. i know you can do it. and you are always the best. even if you look down on me, i will still respect you as a good leader and a good mentor. for others, i will never forget those happy times we spend together and i really hope they will continue.
Joanne is 18 this year and her birthday wish is to have a happy and peaceful life cause she want to concentrate on her studies. hope all the people around her will be good and happy and fortunate. hope her dreams will come true.
good night my world
i hope you will see this. or should i link this to my facebook?
