The sky, the place i always want to live. I love the sky...
Today Hiro is very happy and now i can feel his hugs around me...
Thanks Hiro for accompany me, i'm not alone because of you...
Hiro I love you... smile always...
Hiro one day i will be with you, one day i will stand beside you...
one day i can be like you watching over people like a guardian angel...
Hiro...






也许这就是我的命运　也许这就是我上辈子选择走的路　命中注定要走的路



“上邪! 我欲与君相知，长命无绝衰。山无陵，江水为竭，冬雷震震，夏雨雪，天地合，乃敢与君绝!”　How powerful are these lines. The power of love is so great. When Miss Lonely can find such 惊天动地的爱情…期待 X) I guess this is nature for me to think this way, this is the period of time when girls, teenage are desperate to find their own love, their first love, giving up their first kiss and hugging the guy you love so much. It may not be long, it may not be everlasting, but it is the best memories. The sweet loving period you spend time with the person you love most together. Strolling down the shore, watching sunset and sunrise. Lying down on the big grassland to count and watch the countless stars winking at you. Holding hand and stay close to each other to envy those beside, showing people how loving you are with your beloved. The first time you visit his house, seating on his sofa, adventure in his bedroom. Sweet-talks and hugs filled the place. The moment you won't want to miss, the moment you will never want to forget, the moment you cherish, the moment when you feel like 让时间暂停，一直这样下去，在一起就好了。The first valentine day, the first outing, the first Christmas together. Presents, rings, couple tee, watches and cups, chocolates and many more…Caring and warm phone calls and messages, once in awhile a simple handwritten card to brighten up the atmosphere. Calling each other names and teasing each other. Cheer each other up and support each other all the way. I think this is all for relationship, simple and sweet. Girls do not need expensive or some夸张thing, girls just need her beloved with her, able to feel his presence around her… I will like to feel all these experiences, i will treasure them. To me they are even much more important than how other people think. Miss Lonely finding her Mr Lonely...





Fuck so early in the morning.. Fuck theres a bitch nagging non-stop!! so what?! What now? what you want from me? i hate this i hate this i hate this... you are giving me such a bad attitude at the beginning of the day, make me emo sia.. sian..

And what now boy, i thought you say don't want to talk, don't want to meet, just don't have contact with you. and now what, FUCK! you dumb ass... what you want me to do? you ask me to stop this once and for all. i tried my best and now you are affecting me. STOP THIS INFATUATION!! i want to stop all this.. :(

ok i going to exam now.. haix.. early 6.51AM. today is e-math exam.. ok ok ok do well very well..!!!
haha last hope for maths le..the tomorrow is bio.. sadded sian.. ok i will continue ltr.. haha
ltr will always never come..

good luck people!!!

signing off
P Joanne XY

















to 3 days of holiday for me? pi ah!! got hist on tues.. so need to mug.. haix..
amath and emath paper are ok.. really ma? dunno lar juz hope i can pass and score wif flying colours.. haha :) mug mug mug like real.. watchin gokusen now.. not bad the show although quite old le.. haha..

will continue ltr..






i will shut up and keep quiet.. happy now?!

我选择安静　不是因为我怕你　而是因为我不想跟你吵
我忍　我闭嘴　我选择逃避　
我不希望有一天这个家会分裂
绝望难过孤单　统统藏在心里　自己承受这些痛就够了
哑了　聋了　瞎了　死了
我真的很讨厌现实　我真的没有活下去的力气
厌倦了这一切的一切
这不是我想留念的地方
自由　我要自由　我想要有一对翅膀　飞去一个没有痛苦的地方
想变成天空　想变成风　想变成太阳　想变成月亮　那我每天都能见到你　在你身边盘旋
我知道有一天我的快乐会找回回家的路　回到我身边　我的快乐会回来的

i have my own life.. i know you are someone important to me, but stop treating me like a young children. i have my own sets of thinking, don't expect me to behave just like you. i'm not your dog, i'm not a robot. Please please set me free..








一个人的世界，好寂寞，好无助…
不喜欢，我不喜欢这种感觉…
谁能救救我，啊~

我好想跳下　呐喊　所有烦恼烟消云散

用音乐来麻醉自己…

压力好大　我无能为力　没办法改变这一切
心在挣扎　困兽之斗　谁能告诉我　暂停算不算放弃

我知道没做完的梦最痛　好想好想再看你笑脸
要怎么证明我没有说谎的力气　我只要一点美好的回忆

好想有人疼爱的感觉　要怎么才能紧紧包住永远
真实的我迷失到哪里去　找不回身躯

封闭…




















Today paper is quite alright.. can pass ba?! hmmm... nvm forget about it.. i lost 3 marks for not calculating the percentage of nitrogen(ps, no time to complete) but i complete others.. hope there are not much mistakes...

tmr is eng paper 1 and 2.. jiayou ba!!! gambatte..

human best frenz is dog. why people still dun take gd care of them.. haix...

nite nite

signing off
P Joanne XY











this might be my last post before o level.. i will try to be online whenever i find time.. haha :D
next mon is first paper.. i should be ok with my work ba?? haha
i really dont know.. my brain is filled with crap and know it is full.. no more memory space...
tmr got chem tuition, then go buy headset come home study.. will play com when come home rest and eating.. then will switch it off to study.. morning will study ba.. will complete my bio specimen paper tmr.. friday going to school to take eng paper and of coz return Jane her bio ans sheet..
friday morning go math tuition.. no more BC sadded.. i miss the people there..
i will mug i will mug i will mug!!!!! MUG!!!!!

i really miss those days.. and i hope one day i will return to those days..

lets jiayou together ok!! GAMBATTE EVERYONE!!! GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR O LEVEL!!!

i will be the same.. i will wait for you..

bye bye my world for now.. i will miss you de.. :)

相信自己　相信这一切　我一定能做到的！

signing off
P Joanne XY



























Life still have to go on even though there are so many obstacles...
will update when i got the feeling to type.. super tired...
too tired to study.. everything depend on my past memories.. will recall everything again..
any way i still ok with my work.. really?? hmm.. ok ba still stable.. just need to read more and do more.. tmr will be the last day i use my computer.. ok hang on there.. stop com for 1 month for your bright bright future.. if prince can do it, you can do it too :D tmr will be a busy day..
morning there is eng lesson in school, then afternoon go chinatown for chem tuition, go back tm to take my jay album, hopefully it arrive.. hmm.. come home rest rest then start to do bio paper..
exercise everyday now.. haha today i skip 200 times and play hoop for 10 mins.. haha.. will continue.. tmr another 200?? haha :)

bye bye my world for now..
*muack* love you all..

signing off
P Joanne XY




































Last of everything, everything will come to its end, people will leave each other one day. 这世界没有不散的宴席。therefore i learn to cherish, treasure the people and things around me, i hope that one day, when the person leave or i leave, everyone will have happy memories to recall.. i love you all.. i love all my friends, family, enemies...

today is the last day of school, everyone will go separate ways after o level ended.. i wonder will i see these people again. any way i miss school today coz i dont feel like doing papers again.. so i didnt get to see my friends for the last time. sadded i going to miss you guys.. went to simei to eat with xinyi and shuying, meet puay puay after that. went to xinyi house there to play badminton together.. haha :) damn hot lar.. i going to be cook or roosted into crispy monkey.. haha :) play until 4.30pm went to xinyi house to take bag.. started to eat her foods, choc, wine, biscults.. haha :) then went home alone..
play with a cat under xinyi block, kana scratch by it.. haix.. i hope it wont become swollen.. it is my fault, i shouldnt be so itchy hand go play, and this is my punishment.. haix..
went home to eat and bath.. then go meet Jane for bio paper, then go BC..
i will miss you people.. last lesson in BC, i will miss Mrs Amanda, Ivy, Tom..
haix.. waited at the bus stop.. saw mrs amanda so wait for the bus with her and tom.. saw 292 but i want to miss it.. so mrs amanda left first.. then me and tom waited for a long time for another 292.. i did it on purpose.. nevermind.. so slow dont know what is my intension the Tom.. i just want to spend more time with you.. ok ok ok!!! so we sit together at the steps hee hee :) so many 暗示but you still dont know.. this is not our last time to be together ok.. haix.. i want to be with you, do i need to say so clear.. touching your hand and sit close close with you is such a big hint.. haix.. sadded why i like a gamer.. in his life.. anime and game is first and second, me? i dont know.. sadded.. i just not so important thats all..even when i about to leave i hold your hand and walk to my bus, you didnt grab but just let me slip off.. so slow dont know what you thinking.. nevermind there will be chances.. haha :)

life still have to go on..

signing off
P Joanne XY





Puay Puay名言2：







Putting on a mask to hide all my emotions, to prevent others to see the real me..
Putting on a smiley mask, hide all my sadness and misery...

life was... just like this, same same... haha :)

first time prince all me, first time first time.. so happy
even if it is just a few lines..
i will be happy when i hear your voice :)

today night sky, there are stars...
this is what i believe : every stars is a guardian angel of some one, a star will die and fall when the person it guarding die. the stars will guild u and guard you.. they are angels that God have send, so that God is closer and able to watch over you..

nite nite my world..
oyasumi nasai

signing off
P Joanne XY

　　情绪莫名的拉扯.
　　我还爱你呐.
　　伴你断断续续唱着歌.
　　假装没事了.

　　时间过了走了.
　　爱情面临选择.
　　你冷了倦了我哭了.

　　一开始的不快乐.
　　你用卡片拭写着.
　　有些爱只给到这真的懂了.

　　怎麽了.你累了.说好的.幸福呐
　　我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦远了
　　开心与不开心.一一叙说着.你在不舍
　　那些爱过的感觉都太深刻.我都还记得

　　你不等了.说好的.幸福呐
　　我错了.泪干了.放手了 后悔了

　　只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着.要怎么停呐

　　你的绘画凌乱着.
　　在这个时刻.
　　我想起喷泉旁的白鸽.
　　甜蜜散乱了.

　　情绪莫名的拉扯.
　　我还爱你呐.
　　伴你断断续续唱着歌.
　　假装没事了.

　　时间过了走了.
　　爱情面临选择.
　　你冷了却了我哭了.

　　一开始的不快乐.
　　你用卡片拭写着.
　　有些爱只给到这真的懂了.

　　怎麽了.你累了.说好的.幸福呐
　　我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦远了
　　开心与不开心.一一叙说着.你在不舍
　　那些爱过的感觉都太深刻.我都还记得

　　你不等了.说好的.幸福呐
　　我错了.泪干了.放手了 后悔了

　　只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着.要怎么停呐

　　怎麽了. 你累了.说好的.幸福呐.
　　我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦淹了.
　　我都还记得.

　　你不等了.说好的.幸福呐
　　我错了.泪干了.放手了 后悔了

　　只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着.要怎么停呐 !

a brand new day today, but everything seems the same. the air is fill with loneliness and sadness. still thinking about yesterday question and i seems to have the answer for it. a lonely girl who need something to fill her life. thinking and loving you only help me become numb and feel less pain. being alone every time, maybe i just use to it? but why i still want to run away from reality. 麻醉自己会让自己好过一点，逃避也许会让痛少一些，封闭因为害怕再度失去。想你来填满这些空虚，我累了，只希望这一切能早点结束。so i'm a coward after all. i not that strong after all. but life still have to go on... 我走了，我累了，我后悔了，我懂了，不说了，我放手了。好不想，很不想这样，时间能为我倒流吗？心冷了，泪干了，不再哭了。我能放手吗？还是我该继续牵着一个没温度的手？listen to my heart... 时间过了，该做出选择了。can i forget all these? our precious memories. memories that accompany me, giving me the strength to live on. i still want you... i will not regret... i will not regret all these... i want to lose all my memories but keep only memories with you... forgetting everything maybe will let me feel better. not knowing things will reduce my misery...

puay is still so funny today.. damn crap victoria paper so difficult, a lot i never do.. also because puay very noisy.. haha ok lar some part is my fault.. haha :) miracle, tom sms me and ask me how i am.. haha.. wow he xiang mi leh, but never after that.. forgive him, he too busy le.. last week of BC this week.. pon math tuition, bank manager jie jie come my house haha you should know why.. haha :) friday going to play badminton with puay shu ying lee xin yi and maybe gladys.. haha :) really nothing to say le leh.. keep the nicest memories in my mind.. too nice to type out.. so i will just keep it in my mind.. haha :)

i love you all
emo girl..

signing off
P Joanne XY

















i just found out that during o level period i can also slack.. haha :)
heres my time table..

15-16 oct 11am : chem tuition
20 oct 2.30pm to 4.15pm : chem paper 2
21 oct 2.30pm to 4.15pm/5pm to 6.40pm : eng p1 and eng p2
22 oct 2.30pm to 4.30pm : amath p1
23 oct : no exam (go math tuition)
24 oct 8am to 10am/2.30pm to 5pm : emath p1 and amath p2
25 to 27 oct : no exam (stay home study ssh and bio)
28 oct 2pm to 3.30pm : ssh
29 oct : no exam (go math tuition and study a little bio)
30 oct 8am to 10.30am : emath p2 (go home study bio/maybe meet up kunwei)
31 oct 2.30pm to 4.15pm : bio p2
1 to 2 nov : no exam (stay home study ssh)
3 nov 2pm to 3.30pm : ssh
4 nov : no exam (rest day, revise chi format)
5 nov 8am to 10am/10.45am to 12.15pm : chi p1 and chi p2 (go home study lit "TKMB")
6 nov : no exam (stay home study lit "TKMB & MSND")
7 nov 8am to 9.40am/10.25am to 11.55am : lit p1 and lit p2
8 to 11 nov : no exam ( random study bio and chem)
12 nov 8am to 9am : chem p1 (go home study bio)
13 nov 8am to 9am : bio p1 (FREEDOM)

END OF EXAM PERIOD!!!!!

so i can still slack a bit during this period to keep my brain working.. haha :) just need to plan and use time wisely and there will be time left for me to enjoy and rest during those days..
haha

ok i will start mugging.. l0l :)

jiayou everyone taking o level and dun stress up yourself ok... coz it is not good de..
Good Luck and all the best :)














I really feel like living there.. i place of peace and happiness.. heavenly papa is up there waiting for me to return to his side.. heavenly papa, when can i go back to you?? i miss that place so so much..







Tom sprain his ankle.. sadded :( hope he get well soon.. wan to go see him sia.. haha :)
went BC.. 2nd person to reach.. so early, wat a boring night.. go der do compre sian.. sit wif engeline.. haha disturb each other.. haha :P boring Ivy oso nv come.. morning went to math tuition.. cool onli a pri 2 boy and me.. haha :) can really study.. haha
veri hard working now i guess.. haha but still find time to slack.. haha coz i'm a slacker.. muz live up for that name uh. haha :P
math cher ask me wan to teach tuition ma.. haha i dun mind at all.. pri 1, 2, 3, 4 (math/sci/chi) and pri 1-6 (sci/chi) and sec 1-4 (bio/chem) haha.. any one can help me jie shao student i will be veri happy.. haha :D
"gal arh, wat u wan to be next time?" l0l.. guess wat i ans.. "我要当一名高级交际花，我想当你个狐狸精" haha funny me.. but now.. i really wan to be an artist.. after o level i wan to go work in a pet shop or any jobs that have pets or animals.. i wan to go SPCA to be a volunteer.. haha.. i love animals.. <33
so i slacking now.. watchin tamapi 4th show haha.. he so shuai lor..
tmr still got math tuition.. hee hee :P sian diao le..
now stress up.. o level is lyk 2 weeks away????? l0l.. scary..
mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug
haha haha haha :)

Name: Joanne Ku Xin Yi
DOB: 20th May 1992
Age: 17 years old
School
Chong Zheng Pri School
Qiaonan Pri School
Tampines Sec School
(1e5,2e5,3e3,4e3)
Temasek Polytechnic
(Leisure and Resort Management)
Horoscope: Taurus/Gemini
Email: joannexinyi@hotmail.com



To God i swear
I will love you forever
and to eternity
I will remember you
until the day i die


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