Disappointment
Friday, March 19, 2010 @ 12:51 AM
i feel that everyone have change. especially those who are close to me. but those who are not close to me suddenly become alliance. we think the same and feel the same. something is really not right. and i don't like this feeling. i really hope that good time will come back soon, like those time when we talk to each other, go out with each other, you send me home and i send you home. i call you or you call me for no reason. go out for lunch and dinner together. i really hope all these will happen again. but no. things are getting worst. and people who i expect them to behave in a certain manner doesn't turn out the same. due to external and may be some internal matters. i really miss the one big family that everyone is saying the promoting. i really hope that everything will change back. i'm disappointed in what i see now.
there are no friends, there are no enemies, they are just people who happen to walk into your life and will leave you sooner or later. no longer believe in true friendship anymore. those who are close to me will know exactly what happen. i hate backstabber and betrayer, especially that person i trust and help so much.
my days was fine? i guess? stop working as need to stay in good health before flying off. everyday is slacking, do project, training. same old shit. by the way, results are out and i did not fail any subjects. that is the biggest relieve. although i did not score well for the over all GPA, but i'm happy enough as i pass my 2 economics. did improve a bit, could have gotten a better mark, all thanks to someone. but forget it. next semester will be studying in Sentosa, hope everything will turn out well, will study very hard this time and i promise. blue-gold will be going for their grading for brown this saturday, let them know the feeling of becoming a brown and the stress we facing. so that they will stop the "brown should do this, brown should do that" policy. you think brown means i know everything. there is a limit too you know. you get brown then you know. anyway i really hate the feeling of not getting the thank you bowing every time after training. it is damn unfair! never mind, soon we will get the same belt. i shall work even harder now. slamming. and for that someone who got your black, congratulation. you really deserve it and i respect you. good shows to see soon. front roll will be messy again.
9 days to flying off. going beijing for 8 days 7 nights. from the 28 mar to the 3rd of april. see you people. gonna miss training for 1 week...
good night mortal.
signing off.
Princess Joanne
suck juice day...
Sunday, March 7, 2010 @ 2:23 AM
so to update my life again. a short one.
so i'm finally clear all my papers, waiting for results.. oh god no sub paper please. so now back to working in xcel. i know its kind of weird but i decided to go back because i really miss Javien, Riss, and also Wilfred. i dunno why, maybe its my first job ba. you all dun mistaken Javien as some nasty people ok, only know how to shout shout shout, its actually for your own good de lor. if he dun care about you, why bother scold you. thats why treat it ask parents scold of nag at you lor, then learn from the mistakes, you will become better. that is what i feel after leaving xcel for too long. i feel something is missing. Javien scolding really make me grow up alot, i just realise how childish i was last time, why i want to disobey his words and orders? now, i just want to concentrate and do all the best for the sales so that is he proud of me again and make me a leader again. so is 12 books a week. jiayou. left 11 books for 4 days, so is 2/3/3/3. wow i need minimum 3 books everyday to achieve allowance. maybe this week aikido i dun go. so i got 1 more day to chiong sales. then i miss Wilfred the jokes and he is just too cute and funny le. i miss Ris becoz go out field with him, he will teach you to work a full day and of coz take relavent breaks. like toilet or drinks break. then can ride a car to field, so quite shuang lar.
so people you want to join this big family? xcel is the best! those who are 16 yrs old and above, have good communication skills with people and able to control his/her attitude and emotion suit this job. you can get good money, therefore interested please contact me personally. haha ^^
something to conclude, hougang and kovan people are no life and pa4 si and pa4 shu de ren.. hahaha so i really hate hougang street.. :P
ok thats all. shall update next time, stay tune... ^^
