Dear God, Heavenly father.

i pray for my friend, i pray hard for him. please bless his mom who is in Changi Hospital now, please bless her that her pneumonia condition will not worsen. please bless her to have the strength to recover. with all my faith and heart i pray for her. i know God, i know you love us so much, i know you do not want her to suffer. God please help her to recover, give her your strength and love. thank God. please bless her family too, i know they are worry for her. God calm their heart God, everything will be alright. Oh God, i pray for Ridzwan, that he will get through all these things God. I know he was lost, internship, major project, family issue, CCA issue, training and others. All God bless him with your strength and wisdom, give him knowledge and power to overcome all these. with all my heart i pray for him oh Lord, my loving Lord.
Thank God. Heavenly Father.
Oh God i pray for all my friends, the new school semester have started, everyone will be busy with school work again. God bless us with your knowledge to study and finish all our works. Oh God give us strength to finish all our work. and God i know you are always with us. because you are a loving God, you love your children. Thanks God for everything you have done for us. Thanks for accompany us whenever we are down or having troubles. When everyone ignore us God, i know you will always be there, you will always be there for us. You listen to us, listen to our prayer, you watch us, you guide us. And God although i'm not a good follower God, but still i will do my best, and make you feel proud, please give me the strength to do it God. As you are my God, my heavenly father, my leader of my life, you plan my life, my future. i know i'm safe when i follow your plans. Thanks God for listening to my prayer. In the powerful name i pray, in Jesus name i pray. Amen.







I really love this drama. PS I Love You. it is a very old Singapore movie.

i want to be the angel which have the super power to protect my love ones. if not i hope to have my own angel to protect me.

say you will share with me one love one lifetime, lead me save me from my solitude. say you will stay with me here, beside me. any where you go let me go too. that is all i ask of you.

say you will love me every waking moment. say you need me with you now and always. promise me that all you say is true. say that word and i will follow you. that is all i ask of you.

i lost my ring that i wore it everyday for 5 years. is that a hint from heavenly father?

back to my old self...

















hmmm.. very long never update my life ok.. so today shall be a long post.

firstly, monday was sports club camp. wen qiang and i slept at 5am. cause we cannot sleep. the next day, woke up around 10 or 11 plus. go eat lunch and prepare for the wet games. was the station master for that game called musical chairs. you know know the game? chairs on music sit. ok whats so special about this is, putting eggs, flours and water on the chairs and you are suppose to sit on it. ok that is horrible, at the same time i will pour flour on participants. for me is fun, for them is horror. haha! got one participants said that i will get my retribution. so play play play until evening, zi zhao, grace and me went to wash the chairs. in the end is grace and zi zhao go all the work, i sit there listen to walkie-talkie. but still i got help out a bit. (don't think i lazy don't want to do ok, is they ask me to sit there.) then wash up, eat dinner with all the people. prepare for night race. zi zhao and i need to find a spot that is dark and grass patch, throw melon seeds on the grass and let the participants find. just using a light stick. very torturing. cause got a lot of ants and mosquito. all the way to around 4 plus. return the things and went to SAR to sleep. 6.30am woke me up, ask me to go for debrief of camp and take my stuff. by right i can go home. but i'm just too tired to move. move my things back to SAR with zi zhao, hamzah, grace, wen qiang, mostafa. then we all sleep in the SAR together until 10 plus. next time must prepare ear pucks and clothes pegs. then kishin send me home. thank you. reach home sleep again on the sofa, then wake up eat, play com, sleep again.

thurs training was fun. weapons training. but you know what. my retribution come so fast. was training with the jo and need to do a back flip. i accidently let go and landed hard on my backbone. i hit my head, neck and backbone. sensei was so worried. but i stood up after like 1 minute then i continue to train, everyone was shock. free exercise with zi zhao, he want to kill me is it. i nearly die. haha that pain is torturing. went dinner with the people and walk back home. my back pain like hell.

sun training was fun but i couldn't do roll or slam. sad... after training went to eat then khim, ridzwan and i went to pasir ris to buy bbq stuffs and went prawning. sadly we only caught 4 prawns. bad luck sia..

mon went to boon keng with wen qiang to see chinese sensei. massage my back and take medicine. decided to go bugis after that and walk walk. ate dinner at bugis and took mrt home.

tue went to somerset orchard plaza to make my spec and got contact lens.(shhhh.. don't tell my mom. haha) with wen qiang. oh ya before that we went to eat lunch. then we walk to the new shopping centre, walk walk and decided to walk to plaza sing. we went to walk walk shopping, play arcade and i won myself a tigger soft toy just 2 bucks. then we play basketball, woah i won him. haha. you know why why why why why?? cause you noob. then we went to eat pepper lunch. then we bus-ed to bedok then i took 18 home, he took 87 home.

wed, went to school to meet hamzah and ridzwan to fix my computer.

thurs school training. didn't train well due to back pain. went night training but only see. went supper after that.

friday went to school, couldn't wake up early to practice for grading, went there to clean mats. it is the MATS CLEANING DAY. hot like shit. nearly got sun burn while cleaning. my butt is cooked!!!

today grading at pek kio cc. i didn't do quite well today due to my injuries. sensei was good enough to open one eye for me. my batch didn't do well. due to some people, i also got drag in. sensei say that our group is the worse group he grade. i nearly cried when i heard that, cause i know i really did my very best for this grading. just that i cannot slam and my rolls suck. but overall i did quite ok. sensei still wants my to redo 2 more technique on thurs. means i couldn't get my grade on thurs. i so sad. it is not totally my fault. i'm really really very affected by it. after grading got training, train awhile then all the technique become slam and rolls. i cannot so i bow out. went dinner with the people at united square. took bus 5 back home. oh ya i forget to mention today i took a taxi to pasir ris early in the morning cause zi zhao told me that if i late he won't wait for me. so i took a taxi down, in the end they late, make me wait. kishin arrive first. miss one bus 5 due to a stupid driver. waited very long for the second one. was car sick and feeling very cold. the stupid bus driver don't know how to drive. so dizzy in the bus. not only me. but nearly all. went there and bought food and prepare for grading.

tomorrow i going plaza sing again with ridzwan to take my specs and play.

i really need to train, i want to excel in aikido and my studies. all the belts show your status in front of the aikido senseis. but you know sometime your belts doesn't show much too.. but still, i want to train hard and get my belts. its the feeling of wanting to win the rest. its the feeling of want to get respected due to your rank. but of cause to show you and other where you stand. i know i can do it. i will show you people.

alright thats all for today. i know this is a long and crappy post. but. haha bear with me.

good night mortals.

Princess Joanne





sometimes i just need a break and some peace. sometimes i just need time and a space to reflect.
i really miss you. so so so so so much. so much to tell you... where are you?

my emo-ness have come back. i'm back to my real self.

its hard to love an angel, angels cant fall in love with mortal. falling in love with an angel smile brings happiness or more suffering? what if an angel fall in love with another angel smile? what is the punishment?

i really miss those peaceful days...

cheer up my princess.

Name: Joanne Ku Xin Yi
DOB: 20th May 1992
Age: 17 years old
School
Chong Zheng Pri School
Qiaonan Pri School
Tampines Sec School
(1e5,2e5,3e3,4e3)
Temasek Polytechnic
(Leisure and Resort Management)
Horoscope: Taurus/Gemini
Email: joannexinyi@hotmail.com



To God i swear
I will love you forever
and to eternity
I will remember you
until the day i die


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