Disappointment
Friday, March 19, 2010 @ 12:51 AM
i feel that everyone have change. especially those who are close to me. but those who are not close to me suddenly become alliance. we think the same and feel the same. something is really not right. and i don't like this feeling. i really hope that good time will come back soon, like those time when we talk to each other, go out with each other, you send me home and i send you home. i call you or you call me for no reason. go out for lunch and dinner together. i really hope all these will happen again. but no. things are getting worst. and people who i expect them to behave in a certain manner doesn't turn out the same. due to external and may be some internal matters. i really miss the one big family that everyone is saying the promoting. i really hope that everything will change back. i'm disappointed in what i see now.
there are no friends, there are no enemies, they are just people who happen to walk into your life and will leave you sooner or later. no longer believe in true friendship anymore. those who are close to me will know exactly what happen. i hate backstabber and betrayer, especially that person i trust and help so much.
my days was fine? i guess? stop working as need to stay in good health before flying off. everyday is slacking, do project, training. same old shit. by the way, results are out and i did not fail any subjects. that is the biggest relieve. although i did not score well for the over all GPA, but i'm happy enough as i pass my 2 economics. did improve a bit, could have gotten a better mark, all thanks to someone. but forget it. next semester will be studying in Sentosa, hope everything will turn out well, will study very hard this time and i promise. blue-gold will be going for their grading for brown this saturday, let them know the feeling of becoming a brown and the stress we facing. so that they will stop the "brown should do this, brown should do that" policy. you think brown means i know everything. there is a limit too you know. you get brown then you know. anyway i really hate the feeling of not getting the thank you bowing every time after training. it is damn unfair! never mind, soon we will get the same belt. i shall work even harder now. slamming. and for that someone who got your black, congratulation. you really deserve it and i respect you. good shows to see soon. front roll will be messy again.
9 days to flying off. going beijing for 8 days 7 nights. from the 28 mar to the 3rd of april. see you people. gonna miss training for 1 week...
good night mortal.
signing off.
Princess Joanne
