i just feel like blogging out of a sudden. life was quite alright for me, been out most of the time for projects and training. yesterday is mom birthday, bought a cake for her at tampines one. today went to Ehub Teasire Cafe to do projects, in the end, everyone was like slacking there. facebook addicts. went gladys house, first time i was not lost and do not need people to bring me there, although that one is my 3rd house. haha ^^ went there to do work and slack, take back my cards. talk to her parents, they still very friendly and nice to me, they remember me... tomorrow going training in the evening..
its ironic when i say i feeling lonely, and want someone beside me, yet when i'm in a group, i still feel lonely and hope to be alone. i just hate the feeling of losing things, i just hate to be alone. but reality wants me to be strong, it will not wait for me to learn how to overcome my feelings and learn how to be strong to face it. so why am i here in the first place? i hate this place. its the feeling of relying on him stop be from leaving this world. so if i let go one day, what will happen to me? my heart feel empty, whats the purpose of me in this world? many of my teachers told us this, you must have a purpose in life so that your life will be meaningful. whats my purpose in life? God create us as he know we have a purpose to be created. so God, i think you have forgotten to tell me whats my purpose before you create me. I'm just a waste on earth. time to let go of my past and face my future. trust the Lord what he install for me.
thanks for your promises, its ok if you can't fulfill them. as long as i know you are with me, my best buddy, and that will be enough. please concentrate on your work and your family, your NARFA. but please don't over stress yourself. I will be fine alone. Don't worry. i'm used to being alone. a simple sms or even an offline message is good enough, if you are free or bored you can call me anytime. even late at night. loves ^^
suddenly feel that i'm lack of being love. being single too long just make me feel lonely. being rejected make me feel more depressing. i need love, i want to be love, i want to love someone. who? am i getting desperate? i think i just feeling lonely and indeed i'm alone...
its going to be a lonely christmas for me again... why i'm whining? i thought i'm used to it? i hate christmas... year after year...
don't judge a book by its cover. some words that i say are just to protect myself for being hurt again...
Lonely Hime-sama... Fallen Angel...
The Hime
Name: Joanne Ku Xin Yi
DOB: 20th May 1992
Age: 17 years old School
Chong Zheng Pri School
Qiaonan Pri School
Tampines Sec School
(1e5,2e5,3e3,4e3)
Temasek Polytechnic
(Leisure and Resort Management)
Horoscope: Taurus/Gemini
Email: joannexinyi@hotmail.com
Her Love
To God i swear I will love you forever
and to eternity
I will remember you
until the day i die
