Steps by Steps
Wednesday, October 8, 2008 @ 10:20 PM
a brand new day today, but everything seems the same. the air is fill with loneliness and sadness. still thinking about yesterday question and i seems to have the answer for it. a lonely girl who need something to fill her life. thinking and loving you only help me become numb and feel less pain. being alone every time, maybe i just use to it? but why i still want to run away from reality. 麻醉自己会让自己好过一点，逃避也许会让痛少一些，封闭因为害怕再度失去。想你来填满这些空虚，我累了，只希望这一切能早点结束。so i'm a coward after all. i not that strong after all. but life still have to go on... 我走了，我累了，我后悔了，我懂了，不说了，我放手了。好不想，很不想这样，时间能为我倒流吗？心冷了，泪干了，不再哭了。我能放手吗？还是我该继续牵着一个没温度的手？listen to my heart... 时间过了，该做出选择了。can i forget all these? our precious memories. memories that accompany me, giving me the strength to live on. i still want you... i will not regret... i will not regret all these... i want to lose all my memories but keep only memories with you... forgetting everything maybe will let me feel better. not knowing things will reduce my misery...
puay is still so funny today.. damn crap victoria paper so difficult, a lot i never do.. also because puay very noisy.. haha ok lar some part is my fault.. haha :) miracle, tom sms me and ask me how i am.. haha.. wow he xiang mi leh, but never after that.. forgive him, he too busy le.. last week of BC this week.. pon math tuition, bank manager jie jie come my house haha you should know why.. haha :) friday going to play badminton with puay shu ying lee xin yi and maybe gladys.. haha :) really nothing to say le leh.. keep the nicest memories in my mind.. too nice to type out.. so i will just keep it in my mind.. haha :)
i love you all
emo girl..
signing off
P Joanne XY
