My Story

Life

2010-08-26T12:31:00.002+08:00

Haven been blogging for a very very long time, don't really feel like blogging it out my feelings. Sometime some things just have to be kept in your own heart, but if you don't say it out, you will feel kind of uneasy. hmmmm... don't know how to describe too.

I guess my life now is going up and down, attached with matthew now, cherishing the time spending with him. i guess i finally can put down the burden of prince in my heart. but i still miss my prince sometime, wonder how he is doing now... anyway, i'm very happy that i found matthew, actually we do not know each other very short, we know each other for almost a year, now then i realise. in this 1 year, we are good friends, he treat me well, talk to me nicely, bring me out and fetch me home, bring nice food for me. and on my birthday he propose to me. God, thats fate right, you send him to me when i'm down, thanks God, that is the best bday gift ever. and now he still treat me very well, although he in NS now, he stilll find time for me, bring me out to enjoy and send me home. i feel bad sometimes when he bring me out, knowing he so tired, yet he still insist of meeting me, putting on the smile and cracking jokes, teasing me. i love you matt, thanks for doing all these for me, you are the best gift from gos and i hope to be with you for a very long long time. thank you for accepting me whoever i am. you know my past and you know what i been thought yet you still choose me.

paper can't cover fire for long, i guess my parents will know about me and matt together soon. a war will begin soon. i look so strong and calm, yet i know, my heart is bleed, my heart is crying. i do not know what to do... i know they really don't like matt and can't accept him, but why they just can't accept him? why you all just can't see his strong points but only focus on other things. whats wrong skin colour, whats wrong about mix blood? as long as he treat me well, i'm ok. he don't look bad, he still a human. he is talented and he know how to protect me. why? why you all just cant accept him. what should i do?

I'm like a bird in a golden cage, my leg is chain up by a small wire. sometimes the cage is open, and i can walk out just to feel some fresh air, yet i'm still tied to here, i can't fly away or do what ever i like. occasionally a bird will fly to me and talk to me, it will bring things for me, it will tell me about the outside world, but it will always get chase away by my master. she do not want me to be in danger, she do not want me to feel sad, she do not want me to get hurt, she do not want me to get lost outside. i know he good intention, but its just too suffocating. what i need is just abit of freedom and being with the people i like, and not get protected and trap in a golden cage. please, someone let me out of here... :(

A simple blessing..

2010-05-04T21:16:00.002+08:00

for someone...

i most respected and look up on, hope you have a safe journey and take good care of yourself. i'm so sorry but i will not go send you off, tried not to see them. but i know all my prayers for you, God will help me take good care of you. he heard my prayer. when you experience some errors or things that bothers you, stay relax ok. cause when you are angry or stress up is very scary. don't be too cool ok.

5 months will be over very soon, maybe you don't even feel like coming back to singapore. anyway, enjoy the trip and hope to see you soon. i don't think you will loss contact with us as there also have internet. take lots of photo ^^

good bye, see you soon
and take good care!!!

Disappointment..

2010-05-02T23:27:00.003+08:00

It is disappointing when you see comment like that. lets all reflect and think before you actually say something and hurt someone so badly. go ask around my close friends, if you even got the potential to find out who they are. go ask them how i treat my friends. dun get disappointed when you get good comment about me. because i can swear i treat all my friends with all my heart and i got no regrets as i never hurt them before. if you want to copy, go ahead, i'm not scare. and i don't bother at all. what rights you have when you don't lead a life exactly like mine, do you experience whatever i have been through? you don't, so just shut up and stay out of my business. whatever i do, do you see it in your eyes? or you are blind and deaf, if you are, why you cannot shut up, stop barking like a dog. do you know why i don't bother about doing those things anymore? because even if i did, you will say i never or you will just say things that you like.

just for example, cca day. do you know i got work and lecture on that day. do you know because i think aikido family is so important to me that because of that i sacrifice both my work and lecture for that day. just because i want to go, just because i want to go and support the team and help out abit at the booth. but what i get in return, is there a thank you? i was just going to the library for awhile to check whether my module elective voting and choosing survey is out already or not and when i got back. what i get? "where have you been? you know we are so busy clearing the booth and you never help out?" so i go there is just to help you clear up and booth. ok even so, can't you just say thank you? or you are just too dumb to say it.

mat cleaning, the last mat cleaning i was not there because i got lesson, didn't i told you so already, so i'm not there. i went to SAR at 3pm to see whether you all finish already or not, if not finish i will help, but when i reach, no one is there, all the mats are gone. so is it my fault for not cleaning the mats? if i do not want to clean the mats, i will not even go all the way to SAR to check whether you all finish already or not.

everytime when i am there, i will always help out with laying the mats and setting up the mats. unless i'm late or i was doing other things, even if so, i will ask whether need to wipe mats or not, then i will go down and help, if no need to wipe why i still need to go down. everything is done already, please recall, one raining evening, all of you all are at SAR, i went down early from home, it is raining and i still go ok. ok thats not the main point, the main point is, you all are having fun at SAR, i alone at sport complex looking after all the mats that are left there, they are not even lay or set. so i stay there and look after, after a long time then i see you all walk to sport complex, then i start to help to set the mats. ok unless you got no brain, if not i really don't know what to say. don't just see what you see is true and don't bother asking or finding out the truth. the worst thing is, you are shouting at someone for no reason and you hurts the person feeling. last time when the senior ask you all to clean mats, you all got go? if you cannot remember. i teach you how to, go see the photos in facebook. if you dun see yourself in there, means you never go help. and if you never go help, then you better shut up. CAUSE I GOT GO! whatever. some people are just... you know...

anyway if you do not know me, and you don't even talk to me that often, may i know how much you know me? so you don't have the right to insult or even comment about me.

life now sucks totally, everyday have to go Sentosa to study, travelling time 1 hour 30 mins, if late means die. haix... i don't think i will go school training that often as i can't really rush back on time, maybe go outside training instead. just finish LRM orientation camp, it was fun and memorable, i know the yr 1 really enjoy!!! GOOD JOB PEOPLE!!! problem and problem and more problems, but i know all these will end. i just hope i can find back justice... started working at Esplanade, My Humble House, as a waitress. learning fine dining, good that i have future plans. haha now i'm not scare of SSM haha :P

my darlings and dearest will know how much i love and care for them, thank you girls and thanks for your supports. you all best me well and i know you will know that i'm not those type of people that they mention.

sometimes people are just too innocent or never think at all.

what are friends for? what are true friends? (i'm not saying you all my darling girls!!!)

for those i respected, i still respect, and hope you will have a safe journey and good luck in your studies and work there. i know you can do it. and you are always the best. even if you look down on me, i will still respect you as a good leader and a good mentor. for others, i will never forget those happy times we spend together and i really hope they will continue.

Joanne is 18 this year and her birthday wish is to have a happy and peaceful life cause she want to concentrate on her studies. hope all the people around her will be good and happy and fortunate. hope her dreams will come true.

good night my world

i hope you will see this. or should i link this to my facebook?

Disappointment

2010-03-19T00:51:00.002+08:00

i feel that everyone have change. especially those who are close to me. but those who are not close to me suddenly become alliance. we think the same and feel the same. something is really not right. and i don't like this feeling. i really hope that good time will come back soon, like those time when we talk to each other, go out with each other, you send me home and i send you home. i call you or you call me for no reason. go out for lunch and dinner together. i really hope all these will happen again. but no. things are getting worst. and people who i expect them to behave in a certain manner doesn't turn out the same. due to external and may be some internal matters. i really miss the one big family that everyone is saying the promoting. i really hope that everything will change back. i'm disappointed in what i see now.

there are no friends, there are no enemies, they are just people who happen to walk into your life and will leave you sooner or later. no longer believe in true friendship anymore. those who are close to me will know exactly what happen. i hate backstabber and betrayer, especially that person i trust and help so much.

my days was fine? i guess? stop working as need to stay in good health before flying off. everyday is slacking, do project, training. same old shit. by the way, results are out and i did not fail any subjects. that is the biggest relieve. although i did not score well for the over all GPA, but i'm happy enough as i pass my 2 economics. did improve a bit, could have gotten a better mark, all thanks to someone. but forget it. next semester will be studying in Sentosa, hope everything will turn out well, will study very hard this time and i promise. blue-gold will be going for their grading for brown this saturday, let them know the feeling of becoming a brown and the stress we facing. so that they will stop the "brown should do this, brown should do that" policy. you think brown means i know everything. there is a limit too you know. you get brown then you know. anyway i really hate the feeling of not getting the thank you bowing every time after training. it is damn unfair! never mind, soon we will get the same belt. i shall work even harder now. slamming. and for that someone who got your black, congratulation. you really deserve it and i respect you. good shows to see soon. front roll will be messy again.

9 days to flying off. going beijing for 8 days 7 nights. from the 28 mar to the 3rd of april. see you people. gonna miss training for 1 week...

good night mortal.
signing off.
Princess Joanne

suck juice day...

2010-03-07T02:23:00.002+08:00

so to update my life again. a short one.

so i'm finally clear all my papers, waiting for results.. oh god no sub paper please. so now back to working in xcel. i know its kind of weird but i decided to go back because i really miss Javien, Riss, and also Wilfred. i dunno why, maybe its my first job ba. you all dun mistaken Javien as some nasty people ok, only know how to shout shout shout, its actually for your own good de lor. if he dun care about you, why bother scold you. thats why treat it ask parents scold of nag at you lor, then learn from the mistakes, you will become better. that is what i feel after leaving xcel for too long. i feel something is missing. Javien scolding really make me grow up alot, i just realise how childish i was last time, why i want to disobey his words and orders? now, i just want to concentrate and do all the best for the sales so that is he proud of me again and make me a leader again. so is 12 books a week. jiayou. left 11 books for 4 days, so is 2/3/3/3. wow i need minimum 3 books everyday to achieve allowance. maybe this week aikido i dun go. so i got 1 more day to chiong sales. then i miss Wilfred the jokes and he is just too cute and funny le. i miss Ris becoz go out field with him, he will teach you to work a full day and of coz take relavent breaks. like toilet or drinks break. then can ride a car to field, so quite shuang lar.

so people you want to join this big family? xcel is the best! those who are 16 yrs old and above, have good communication skills with people and able to control his/her attitude and emotion suit this job. you can get good money, therefore interested please contact me personally. haha ^^

something to conclude, hougang and kovan people are no life and pa4 si and pa4 shu de ren.. hahaha so i really hate hougang street.. :P

ok thats all. shall update next time, stay tune... ^^

Whats wrong with me?

2010-02-18T02:12:00.002+08:00

My Way

And now,the end is near
And so I face the final curtain
My friend, I'll say it clear
I'll state my case, of which I'm certain
I've lived a life that's full
I've traveled each and every highway
And more, much more than this
I did it my way
Regrets, I've had a few
But then again, too few to mention
I did what I had to do
And saw it through without exemption
I planned each charted course
Each careful step along the byway
And more, much more than this
I did it my way
Yes,there were times, I'm sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew
But through it all, when there was doubt
I ate it up and spit it out
I faced it all and I stood tall
And did it my way.
I've loved, I've laughed and cried
I've had my fill, my share of losing
And now, as tears subside
I find it all so amusing
To think I did all that
And may I say not in a shy way
"Oh no, oh no not me,
I did it my way"
For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught
To say the things he truly feels
And not the words of one who kneels
The record shows I took the blows
And did it my way

Chinese new year was ok, chu xi stayed home to enjoy my kfc meal, then chu yi went to my uncle and aunty house, won $$$. chu er went to my aunty house, won $$$. chu san went 201 mac to study with felicia darling. chu si went school to study. tmr also going school to study.

Thanks AL for treating me ShinTokyo today!!!! had a fun time playing arcade too..

My mom is going crazy again. i really dunno what to do with her. most of my relatives know about this, we hope she doesnt suffer from mental illness. i hope she will be better soon. she begin to hate everyone and first time she doesnt want to go visit relative house. she doesnt want to attend even my cousins wedding. she just want to lock herself up at home doesnt want to go out. i really have no idea what happen to her. dad was also worry about her. even my aunt is worried. hope that everything is fine.

i'm stress.. F up by everything. my friends, family, school, cca... argh!!!! i seriously dunno how to face all these..

Lets start one by one:
My friends:-
i always thought that my friends are super nice people. thats why i always clinked on them. i help them, i treat them as good friends, and in the end what i got? betrayed by them. i seriously hate this. i will never forget and i'm sure will revenge this. dun force me to do it. i know you are jealous, but why? you are always better than me. just that i'm a bit lucky thats all. you still can get it. why you want to hurt me so much?
to my rest of my friends. can we be close back? haha i seriously miss you all girls and my darlings!!!! let have a outing soon ok my darling girls..

school:-
poly life was great for the first 2 weeks, then it become very sucky. but i cant believe its been a year i study in TP. but i really like TP. enjoy walking to sugar loaf to eat cakes and main course. or go engine school to get the fries. enjoy the school library when there are no one. enjoy business school benches outside LT. enjoy going cheers to grab some bites. and of coz. enjoy going SAR!!!! where all my activities are mostly there.
i miss my sec school and sec school camps!!!
i seriously hate school works. projects are all cramp tgt. then rush until siao. now mugging exams..

CCA:-
who on earth know how i feel. i feel like quitting training, but i wan to continue. yet training is bad for my back. and now worst. i'm a brown. need to do so many things. include the most scary thing. slamming. i wan to learn. i wan to. I WANT TO LEARN HOW TO SLAM!!! but who really know how i feel. i want but i cant. you know until now my back still ache after too much rolling. even standing and sitting too long my back will also pain. when i say long. its about 1 hour to 2 hours. for normal people should not be so short ba.. i hope my back can cure soon. i wan to slam. like so fun lar. but need to listen to what the doc say. cannot train too hard if not quit aikido.

family:-
my family are having problem. relationship problems. my parents are always not close tgt. recently my family have become worst. i dun feel like mentioning. but now to me. home is a place where i sleep, eat and get my allowances. thats all to me. i dun expect what. actually i really jealous those who can go out and eat dinner with their whole family. or go out outing with whole family. i hope i will have a chance one day..

other than those. my life still suck. haha. but nevermind. life goes on...

enjoy life fellow mortals. you all are much fortunate than me. how i wish my punishment will be over soon. God will give me back my wings and send me back to heaven. i hate my life...

good nite
signing off
Princess Joanne

2010-02-18T02:09:00.001+08:00

Happy Belated
Chinese New Year
&
Valentine Day

My Friends
and
others..
!!!

Hope you all enjoy your long long holiday break
!!!

Last day of school for semester 1.2

2010-02-12T17:45:00.002+08:00

its the last day of school. should i be happy? next week is chinese new year. but you know what, its also study week, means i not going to enjoy my cny this year.. :( god damn it.. who plan this..

anyway last day of school was.. boring.. OMG i going to miss my year 3 seniors.. haha ytd will be the last day to see them in school as a student.. haha :P Aikido need them to be crazy. Lin quan flying kicks ahahahhaaa and he act cuteness.. hahaha and oso my fav chicken senpai who always complain that he not enough sleep... nafees lame jokes.. smelly tofu funniness... and my oh my xiao tian tian. hahahaha (omg yee sin going to kill me..) and and and pang yao the super damn cute guy.. haha and my buddy ridzwan!! haha :P ok he got nothing special except he is too serious sometimes.. :P OMG i going to miss them.. especially miss seeing them walking in school in normal school day..

okok.. so today slack until 4 to go marketing lecture.. now slacking again.. Joanne is a slacker.. :X

okok shall share with you all a veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri touching video... tell u a secret.. i nearly cry... meow.. :X enjoy..

吃醋

2010-01-30T00:08:00.002+08:00

好奇怪哦~ 看到你和其他女生牵手，我的心突然焦虑不安，即使你当时只是因为好玩才牵的。好希望那女生是我，是你牵着我的手，可能我太异想天开了，会有可能吗？我会有机会吗？应该是因为我已学会隐藏自己的情绪吧，我懂得如何催眠自己，还能在你面前笑，但是笑好痛苦。喜欢看你说话的表情，喜欢看你的脸部表情，喜欢你搞笑，喜欢看到你想认真的时候却涨落出可爱的一面。

最近我真的好想你，一直想，你在哪？在做什么？明天的考试我会用我全力去应付，不会丢了你的脸。好怕的高高的，这才配得上你。但我追得上吗？我只想重新能回到你身边，做回朋友，至少这样你会在我身边。

我想我已忘了如何表达我的表情了，失去的笑与泪已找不回来了。我该接受这命运的安排？

Good luck for those taking 4th Kyu Brown Belt today!!!!

树的心愿

2010-01-23T03:39:00.001+08:00

如何让你遇见我
在我最美丽的时刻
为这我已在佛前求了500年
求他让我们结一段尘缘
佛于是把我变成一棵树
长在你必经的路上
当你慢慢想我靠近
请你细听
我的每个枝叶斗在颤抖的等待
你终于看见我
我摒住呼吸
让自己保持美丽和骄傲
当你举起手中的利斧
我忽然明白
我等待的爱情要用生命来当代价
忍住疼痛默默地看你
我的爱人
我终于无力的倒下
带落一地花瓣
瓣瓣都是我破碎的灵魂
最后一刹那
终于看见你眼中的微笑和茫然
亲爱的
原来我们的缘分
是孽缘

回到佛前
我再次恳求
求他不要那么残忍
我要带着满树灿烂的樱花
带着盛开的美丽
让你遇见爱上我
这次
我求了1万年
佛于是把我变成一棵树
长在寂寞的悬崖边
每一个春天
我都慎重得开满花朵
朵朵都是我前世的期盼
一年又一年
耗尽所有的芬芳和美丽
在一个雷电交加的夜晚
终于可以决定放弃生命
不在等待
化去的那一刻
我终于见到了你
你竟是我树阴下的一棵灵芝草
原来我们一直在一起
世界给我的最后一个画面
是你含泪的不舍
这一世，我们有缘无份

回到佛前
有更多的不解
佛问
你还要多一世么？
我还要么？
我敢要么？
看着佛大无谓的眼
我不再恳求。
水来让它来风去我不留
这一世
我要做铁树
不再等你没有爱情
我等待的你
已随花瓣落去

Unlucky...

2010-01-19T11:29:00.002+08:00

First of all,

Happy Birthday
to
my darling husband
Jay Chou

18/01/2010
31st Birthday
!!!!!!

been very very unlucky this few days. rushing projects, friends, family...
i will just say about yesterday to now what happen. spend too much during the weekend so i no money now. yesterday went school and brought biscuits to school for my lunch and dinner. went to school library after school to wait for Ridzwan. left library at 9pm, when library closed then realise that i left my wallet in the library. so i no money to eat, no cards and more impt, no ezlink card. my kind buddy lend me 10 bucks for my 1 week eating money. so touch. walk to school opp mac to buy a double cheese burger. best meal of the day, eat like never eat food for 3 days. oh ya forget to mention, so unlucky you know, go mac and mac suddenly no electricity, blackout. so they delay my order. walk home coz no ezlink card oso no money to take bus or even taxi.
today, woke up late, late for POM lecture, my ear i think inside swollen, so i apply the doctor medicine, need to lie down so i fall asleep on my sofa. late for class, went down to bus stop, stupid bus drive never see me just drive off even though i keep waving. nevermind. call my friend to tell teacher that i will be late, so i drop my 8 bucks at the bus stop. going to school without money. ok lar a few cents, so thats my lunch money. came school take wallet.
haix... i hope i lost the money is to break this unlucky times ba... po qian xiao zai ma... haix...

what is happening to me???

Anata no koto wo kangaeteiru

2010-01-04T01:07:00.000+08:00

2010 First blog

2010-01-01T13:38:00.001+08:00

last person to talk to is Gladys.
Last person to meet is Gladys.
Last drink i drink is Long Island Tea and Vodka.
Last photo i take is with Gladys.
Last time hold hand is with Gladys.
First time hold hand is with Gladys.
First person who i meet is Gladys.
First person to talk to is Gladys.
First person sleep with is Gladys.
First transport taken is MRT.
First time got drunk for drinking too much.
.
.
.

went to school today for Microecons and Macroecons. then went tamp1 to meet gladys. then went S-11 to eat lunch. then went home. went safra play bowling and pool with ridzwan and gladys. then ridzwan send me home. went back home for dinner and wait for gladys reply. 9pm went to gladys house, out with her family to Raffles Place to countdown and see fireworks. went kallang first to eat dinner then mrt-ed to raffles place. *Very Crowded* waited for countdown went to 7-11 to buy Vodka and Long Island Tea. after the countdown, mrt-ed back to kallang then gladys parent drive me back. *thanks thanks* came home bathe, wanted to stay up to play com but my head killing me. went to sleep instead.

Happy 2010!!!!!!

*never rush when drinking alcohol or you will get drunk like me....

Urge

2009-12-16T21:48:00.003+08:00

i just feel like blogging out of a sudden. life was quite alright for me, been out most of the time for projects and training. yesterday is mom birthday, bought a cake for her at tampines one. today went to Ehub Teasire Cafe to do projects, in the end, everyone was like slacking there. facebook addicts. went gladys house, first time i was not lost and do not need people to bring me there, although that one is my 3rd house. haha ^^ went there to do work and slack, take back my cards. talk to her parents, they still very friendly and nice to me, they remember me... tomorrow going training in the evening..

its ironic when i say i feeling lonely, and want someone beside me, yet when i'm in a group, i still feel lonely and hope to be alone. i just hate the feeling of losing things, i just hate to be alone. but reality wants me to be strong, it will not wait for me to learn how to overcome my feelings and learn how to be strong to face it. so why am i here in the first place? i hate this place. its the feeling of relying on him stop be from leaving this world. so if i let go one day, what will happen to me? my heart feel empty, whats the purpose of me in this world? many of my teachers told us this, you must have a purpose in life so that your life will be meaningful. whats my purpose in life? God create us as he know we have a purpose to be created. so God, i think you have forgotten to tell me whats my purpose before you create me. I'm just a waste on earth. time to let go of my past and face my future. trust the Lord what he install for me.

我好喜欢林宥嘉的背影：

三公分阳光三公分空气
堵在眼前像一面玻璃
挡住了你表情剩下只有脚印
一直向前走走不完距离
一直向后退不出回忆
很高兴有心事帮我困住自己
你头发上淡淡青草香气
变成了风才能和我相遇
你的目光蒸发成云
再下成雨我才能够靠近
感谢我不可以住进你的眼睛
所以才能拥抱你的背影
有再多的遗憾用来牢牢记住
不完美的所有美丽
感谢我不可以拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落不用你回头看
不用珍惜
我怀里所有温暖的空气
变成风也不敢和你相遇
我的心事蒸发成云
再下成雨却舍不得淋湿你
感谢我不可以住进你的眼睛
所以才能拥抱你的背影
有再多的遗憾用来牢牢记住
不完美的所有美丽
感谢我不可以拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落不用你回头看
不用珍惜
感谢我不可以拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落如果你回头看
不用在意

也许这就是命运的安排，让我再也无法的接近你，难道我真的只能像歌里描述的情景一样才能靠近你吗？如果是，我很愿意变成风，变成雨来靠近你。

thanks for your promises, its ok if you can't fulfill them. as long as i know you are with me, my best buddy, and that will be enough. please concentrate on your work and your family, your NARFA. but please don't over stress yourself. I will be fine alone. Don't worry. i'm used to being alone. a simple sms or even an offline message is good enough, if you are free or bored you can call me anytime. even late at night. loves ^^

suddenly feel that i'm lack of being love. being single too long just make me feel lonely. being rejected make me feel more depressing. i need love, i want to be love, i want to love someone. who? am i getting desperate? i think i just feeling lonely and indeed i'm alone...

its going to be a lonely christmas for me again... why i'm whining? i thought i'm used to it? i hate christmas... year after year...

don't judge a book by its cover. some words that i say are just to protect myself for being hurt again...

Lonely Hime-sama...
Fallen Angel...

I miss you...

2009-12-08T21:12:00.002+08:00

i miss you my angel, i know you are there with me. but why my angel, you seems so far away now. i hardly feel you are with me, around me, watching me... i miss you my angel, don't worry i will be there with you soon. heavenly father when my punishment is going to end? i want to go back to you. but now, the sky is getting higher and further away from me.. what happen? am i going to stuck on earth? you don't want me back? i miss the sky, i miss you heavenly father, i miss you my guardian angel, pls let me go back soon.. i'm sick and tired of the world i'm living now...

and i miss you... i will not let go your hand ever again if i can go back in time. i wan to be lyk back then, a simple life, theres you, theres me, we can play all day and night, laugh and cry together. there is always there for you. not now anymore... and i think never ever again... i think its time to say good bye..

life is alright now.. nothing special..

christmas is round the corner... its time to enjoy and relax...

i hate my life now.. life sucks...

Rubbish Bin

2009-12-01T22:02:00.002+08:00

i think i just need a place to vex out my anger and all those miseries that i am suffering now.

i just need some peace and be alone. too many, just too many of thoughts and concerns.

Oh God! save me oh Lord! what have i become? i'm lost God, i'm totally lost.

I'm just not as strong as i seems. i really feel like going to a place and hide, assuming that hiding can solves all the problems. what innocent thoughts. but NO! i need to face them. but i just don't have the strenght and heart to face them. I'm scare. I'm very scare. i just need someone or anyone to be with me, the person that i always wanted and rely on are gone. I'm alone. No one seems to care. can i abandon the world? can i just leave this world and all my problems.

don't worry i will be fine. i guess so. and i hope so. life still need to go on. thats reality.

to that person, i know you and me have alot of problems to handle. and you know i'm not as strong as you think i am. i'm just a weak coward who doesn't know how to face reality. you are brave, and you must me brave. i must become strong too. lets work hard together ok. everything will be fine. i'm sure. just remember this, you are my best buddy and i will never let go of you. no matter what happen, or you are emotionally hurt, or just need someone to talk and hug, i will always be there for you. i will fly to you if you need help. thank you god for sending me to you. forever friends, forever my best buddy. LOVES
*PS: you scare me just now. you make me so worried.

mid-semester tests coming, everyone start mugging!!!!!

Fate

2009-11-04T23:33:00.003+08:00

so..

many things happen. getting used to semester 2 life. so is PBL, projects and tests...

my life.. study, training, eating and drinking... ya drinking. i think that is the best thing for me. drinking make me happy. and quote from CY blog:

When u feel shit, go training.
When u feel like a loser, go training
When u feel guilty, go training
When u feel happy, go training
When u cant keep up anymore in life, go training
When u cant think anymore, go training

and i agree with that...

so went to science center on the 31th Oct 2009 with Ridzwan. went to see Body World and play around in science center. i was quite scare at the beginning, thinking what i will see. didnt dare to go in at first but once i step in, i dun feel scare anymore. it is a very interesting place to go. and i encourage people to go to. you see what happen when you are first created to how you die. NO MORE CHRISTMAS!!! they dissected Santa Claus and his reindeers. haha!!! ok then we walk around the center to play until around 6.30pm i was acting like a small kid. haha but most of the places i went before many times. Ridzwan was the one who is enjoying.. haha!!! then went to kinetic garden to play and about to rain. took a cab to chinese garden. took mrt to joon kun. so pioneer is all flats and jon kun is all factories. so ppl work at jon kun stay at pioneer???!!!?!?! ahahahahaha!!! took mrt to bedok and had dinner there. walk Ridzwan back home and took 17 back home. (there are things i cannot mention here, so sorry readers.)

sun went for aikido training and it was Wen Qiang birthday!! haha a slam a year so he got 18 slams from Kris, Hamzah, Zi Zhao, CY and i forget who le.. haha weapon training was fun. 24 kata and 31 kata. i hope got more weapon training. haha!!! went to hawker center to eat after training. celebrate WQ bdae there. smash cake on his face. haha poor WQ. then took bus 23 to tamp int.

nothing special about my life.

oh thanks to someone i updated my blog. haha ^^

Lets be romantic scandalous close friends.. =P

signing off

Princess Joanne

a simple prayer

2009-10-20T00:02:00.002+08:00

Dear God, Heavenly father.

i pray for my friend, i pray hard for him. please bless his mom who is in Changi Hospital now, please bless her that her pneumonia condition will not worsen. please bless her to have the strength to recover. with all my faith and heart i pray for her. i know God, i know you love us so much, i know you do not want her to suffer. God please help her to recover, give her your strength and love. thank God. please bless her family too, i know they are worry for her. God calm their heart God, everything will be alright. Oh God, i pray for Ridzwan, that he will get through all these things God. I know he was lost, internship, major project, family issue, CCA issue, training and others. All God bless him with your strength and wisdom, give him knowledge and power to overcome all these. with all my heart i pray for him oh Lord, my loving Lord.
Thank God. Heavenly Father.
Oh God i pray for all my friends, the new school semester have started, everyone will be busy with school work again. God bless us with your knowledge to study and finish all our works. Oh God give us strength to finish all our work. and God i know you are always with us. because you are a loving God, you love your children. Thanks God for everything you have done for us. Thanks for accompany us whenever we are down or having troubles. When everyone ignore us God, i know you will always be there, you will always be there for us. You listen to us, listen to our prayer, you watch us, you guide us. And God although i'm not a good follower God, but still i will do my best, and make you feel proud, please give me the strength to do it God. As you are my God, my heavenly father, my leader of my life, you plan my life, my future. i know i'm safe when i follow your plans. Thanks God for listening to my prayer. In the powerful name i pray, in Jesus name i pray. Amen.

guardian angel

2009-10-16T12:31:00.003+08:00

I really love this drama. PS I Love You. it is a very old Singapore movie.

i want to be the angel which have the super power to protect my love ones. if not i hope to have my own angel to protect me.

say you will share with me one love one lifetime, lead me save me from my solitude. say you will stay with me here, beside me. any where you go let me go too. that is all i ask of you.

say you will love me every waking moment. say you need me with you now and always. promise me that all you say is true. say that word and i will follow you. that is all i ask of you.

i lost my ring that i wore it everyday for 5 years. is that a hint from heavenly father?

back to my old self...

yeah!!!!

2009-10-16T01:15:00.001+08:00

yeah!!!
i finally got my
5th kyu aikido
i'm finally a blue-gold

haha!!

shall update next time..

2009-10-11T11:04:00.000+08:00

问，问世间情为何物，直教人生死相许？

天南地北双飞客，老翅几回寒暑。

欢乐趣，离别苦，就中更有痴儿女，君应有语。

渺万里层云,千山暮雪，只影向谁去？

横汾路，寂寞当年箫鼓，荒烟依旧平楚。

招魂楚些何嗟及，山鬼暗啼风雨。

天地妒，未信与，莺儿燕子俱黄土，千秋万古。

为留待骚人，狂歌痛饮，来访雁丘处。

life really do suck..

2009-10-11T00:57:00.002+08:00

hmmm.. very long never update my life ok.. so today shall be a long post.

firstly, monday was sports club camp. wen qiang and i slept at 5am. cause we cannot sleep. the next day, woke up around 10 or 11 plus. go eat lunch and prepare for the wet games. was the station master for that game called musical chairs. you know know the game? chairs on music sit. ok whats so special about this is, putting eggs, flours and water on the chairs and you are suppose to sit on it. ok that is horrible, at the same time i will pour flour on participants. for me is fun, for them is horror. haha! got one participants said that i will get my retribution. so play play play until evening, zi zhao, grace and me went to wash the chairs. in the end is grace and zi zhao go all the work, i sit there listen to walkie-talkie. but still i got help out a bit. (don't think i lazy don't want to do ok, is they ask me to sit there.) then wash up, eat dinner with all the people. prepare for night race. zi zhao and i need to find a spot that is dark and grass patch, throw melon seeds on the grass and let the participants find. just using a light stick. very torturing. cause got a lot of ants and mosquito. all the way to around 4 plus. return the things and went to SAR to sleep. 6.30am woke me up, ask me to go for debrief of camp and take my stuff. by right i can go home. but i'm just too tired to move. move my things back to SAR with zi zhao, hamzah, grace, wen qiang, mostafa. then we all sleep in the SAR together until 10 plus. next time must prepare ear pucks and clothes pegs. then kishin send me home. thank you. reach home sleep again on the sofa, then wake up eat, play com, sleep again.

thurs training was fun. weapons training. but you know what. my retribution come so fast. was training with the jo and need to do a back flip. i accidently let go and landed hard on my backbone. i hit my head, neck and backbone. sensei was so worried. but i stood up after like 1 minute then i continue to train, everyone was shock. free exercise with zi zhao, he want to kill me is it. i nearly die. haha that pain is torturing. went dinner with the people and walk back home. my back pain like hell.

sun training was fun but i couldn't do roll or slam. sad... after training went to eat then khim, ridzwan and i went to pasir ris to buy bbq stuffs and went prawning. sadly we only caught 4 prawns. bad luck sia..

mon went to boon keng with wen qiang to see chinese sensei. massage my back and take medicine. decided to go bugis after that and walk walk. ate dinner at bugis and took mrt home.

tue went to somerset orchard plaza to make my spec and got contact lens.(shhhh.. don't tell my mom. haha) with wen qiang. oh ya before that we went to eat lunch. then we walk to the new shopping centre, walk walk and decided to walk to plaza sing. we went to walk walk shopping, play arcade and i won myself a tigger soft toy just 2 bucks. then we play basketball, woah i won him. haha. you know why why why why why?? cause you noob. then we went to eat pepper lunch. then we bus-ed to bedok then i took 18 home, he took 87 home.

wed, went to school to meet hamzah and ridzwan to fix my computer.

thurs school training. didn't train well due to back pain. went night training but only see. went supper after that.

friday went to school, couldn't wake up early to practice for grading, went there to clean mats. it is the MATS CLEANING DAY. hot like shit. nearly got sun burn while cleaning. my butt is cooked!!!

today grading at pek kio cc. i didn't do quite well today due to my injuries. sensei was good enough to open one eye for me. my batch didn't do well. due to some people, i also got drag in. sensei say that our group is the worse group he grade. i nearly cried when i heard that, cause i know i really did my very best for this grading. just that i cannot slam and my rolls suck. but overall i did quite ok. sensei still wants my to redo 2 more technique on thurs. means i couldn't get my grade on thurs. i so sad. it is not totally my fault. i'm really really very affected by it. after grading got training, train awhile then all the technique become slam and rolls. i cannot so i bow out. went dinner with the people at united square. took bus 5 back home. oh ya i forget to mention today i took a taxi to pasir ris early in the morning cause zi zhao told me that if i late he won't wait for me. so i took a taxi down, in the end they late, make me wait. kishin arrive first. miss one bus 5 due to a stupid driver. waited very long for the second one. was car sick and feeling very cold. the stupid bus driver don't know how to drive. so dizzy in the bus. not only me. but nearly all. went there and bought food and prepare for grading.

tomorrow i going plaza sing again with ridzwan to take my specs and play.

i really need to train, i want to excel in aikido and my studies. all the belts show your status in front of the aikido senseis. but you know sometime your belts doesn't show much too.. but still, i want to train hard and get my belts. its the feeling of wanting to win the rest. its the feeling of want to get respected due to your rank. but of cause to show you and other where you stand. i know i can do it. i will show you people.

alright thats all for today. i know this is a long and crappy post. but. haha bear with me.

good night mortals.

Princess Joanne

2009-10-01T01:27:00.002+08:00

sometimes i just need a break and some peace. sometimes i just need time and a space to reflect.
i really miss you. so so so so so much. so much to tell you... where are you?

my emo-ness have come back. i'm back to my real self.

its hard to love an angel, angels cant fall in love with mortal. falling in love with an angel smile brings happiness or more suffering? what if an angel fall in love with another angel smile? what is the punishment?

i really miss those peaceful days...

cheer up my princess.

2009-10-01T01:26:00.001+08:00

Gomen nasai
Zi Zhao
!!!!
Sorry...
=(((((

2.16AM

2009-09-29T02:18:00.002+08:00

went for sun morning training ytd. practice on old technique, then is senior free exercise practice then randori. it was a fun and interesting training. oh ya. STUPID CHICKEN LATE FOR 20 MINS, BAKA NE!!!
after training went home, then prepare for work. from 6pm to 1am ytd, fuck up lar! but thank god, wen qiang stay until 10pm with me, big big thanks for him man <3333

today:

woke up at 12noon then pack things. met Knight at 2.30pm then went to qiaonan to fetch his sister and bought drinks and food. fuck sia, the security guard ask alot of question and give me that shit face! wait till 3.30pm then his sister came. the drinks stall still know me. haha! am i that famous???(*bow* thank you thank you) went back home to do a final packing. went out of house at 4pm, met knight and we went to school tgt. met zi zhao and mostafa at sar, slack there till 9pm. went to sport complex after that continue slacking. so what i do today? 4 things. slack, walk, eat, train. now everyone is sleeping. hee hee :) so quiet... ok shall change a com to use. dun feel like sleeping yet. thats all for today. prepare for tmr.

it was nice to lie down and look at the sky.

its raining now.. cold.. feel ike hugging something warm...

oyasumi people, update soon.

Princess Joanne

random..

2009-09-27T01:24:00.001+08:00

ありがとう　ございます　きしん
！！！！！！
<33333

hmmm...

2009-09-27T00:59:00.004+08:00

woke up early in the morning, help daddy wash mom toilet then eat breadfast watch drama... chat with zi zhao before going for my Japanese Lab. Then rush down school as i was 30 mins late, in the end only got 2 guys and plus me in the LT. ok whatever, the "class" was quite good, learn a bit of new things.
left around 3.40pm then went to tampines mrt to meet ridzwan, he was 20 mins late!!!! and seldom i'm so early to wait for people. you should feel honor that the princess wait for you. so we went to Ramen Ten to eat(he treat ma.) i order Hot Pot, he order some chicken ramen, order sashimi, order ice lemon tea, took 6 plates from the moving belts. and still i'm not full,but due to budget i never order any more.
went to tampines mall and went NTUC to meet the Bengs, went to arcade to play dance machine and basketball. (very tired, today play too many rounds)
went to Giant with Ridzwan. bought a bottle of vodka at 7-11. help my mom buy a fan, my good butler help me carry the fan all the way from giant to my house, thanks Butler Ridzwan!!!
drank vodka on my way home with ridzwan.(of coz he never drink) came home play computer, webcam... blahblahblah. chatting with my knight now.
tomorrow going training, no knight, no pig... so sad.. sobsobsob...

hai i shall go sleep now, good night mortal :)

Princess Joanne

i started missing him again...

hmmm...

2009-09-27T00:59:00.000+08:00

I'm thinking...

2009-09-24T00:53:00.003+08:00

been thinking stuffs after exam, i think is because no more need to remember the things and notes for exam...

Life is so unfair, the world, the society is so unfair. The western countries are pouring away milk due to over producing during strikes and riots, at the other part of the world, children at africa or india, they are struggling to survive, they don't even get to drink a single drop of milk, only from their mom breast milk. but you think they could survive just on that? their parents don;t even have enough food to survive themselves, how the mom going to produce enough breast milk for their children. we are just too fortunate to understand all these. i cant imagine how we going to survive when we are throw to that place penniless. with no experience in living outside ourselves, without handphone or laptop or psp or tv. without a proper bed and food. how are we going to survive there? i really think that they are so awesome, they can can can survive there?!?!?!?! they still can form their own family... (listen to Michael Jackson - Heal the world)
Watch a tv show just now, about Jarkata. i can't believe that people actually stay beside the rail way track less than 1 metre from the rail way. they just build a simple shelter and stay there. a bed shorter than a normal person height, the whole area less than 1 metre live a family. with all the sound and dust the train create, they can survive. picking up rubbish and sell them to earn a living. i really cant believe that. i feel that i'm really a princess. i'm so fortunate.

what will happen to me after graduation? was listening to vitamin c graduation song, thinking. what will really happen to me? will i still contact with all the friends i have, all of us will be in separate ways, work and have our own family. i will really miss them. my classmates and cca people. i really miss my aikido people. aikido now is like my second home. i am going to miss them a lot and a lot. i don't want to leave them, i hope non of us leave too. Ridzwan sms me about what he is thinking. same, i'm worry. i'm worry of a lot of things. i'm scare of losing. thats why i choose to have no more feelings and emotions, wearing a mask will help me to forget a lot of things, there will be no more gaining and losing feelings. but i know, all these are unreal, in the end i'm still going to lose things, no matter how much i protect them, treasure them, secure them, i will still lose my precious things one day. such as, my friends, my family.... i must learn to be strong, i must learn how to control my emotions, i shall not be beaten down by all these. but why i still got this strong feeling of scare, scare that i start to lose all the precious people around me. what will happen to me by then?

today exam was quite alright, i hope i can pass..

tomorrow going to meet mostafa, wen qiang and some others at tm to find nicholas birthday present and lunch, then go back to school for aikido training. a tired day for me tmr..

i pity and worry about my friends now. first zi zhao, he sound like he going to faint after work, where is the lively pig i know? i know he suffered a lot now from the work, but i know it will be over soon. my lively zi zhao will be back soon. and hamzah, my dear knight, he been so so so stress up by his competition, just now he called me, he sounds like he is half-dead. poor hammy. feel sad for him, but i know it will be over soon too. haha ^^ and next is ridzwan, his one is seriously no life, early morning go work, night come back home, too tired to do anything, so sleep, rest time need to read article on his work also. i seriously pity him, and he still got a long way to go. gambatte yo ridzwan. for all the others, good luck and jiayou to those who want to accomplish their goals!!!!

alright oyasumi mortal.. stay tune..

Princess Joanne

sian-ness,,,

2009-09-23T10:49:00.002+08:00

basically. my life only 1 thing. mug mug mug and mug.. today is my exam day. remember most already. i hope i can pass this time.
alright. so went for the sport club camp dry run to know what games there are and how to play them. only mostafa and me, hamzah went training for his competition, zi zhao went for his work in F1, Kris just came back from australia, grace went to her lab to help out..
but still we enjoy ourselves. when the dry run end, hamzah came to the sport complex to find us. went back to SAR club room, saw grace there, they crap and play while i study. play until 7 plus, hamzah send me back home, thanks for being such a good knight, doing your job well.

PS: Thank you Hamzah, Hammy, my dear knight, to escort me to school and send me back home.
GOOD LUCK BEST OF LUCK FOR YOUR COMPETITION!!!!!

so yup. now i going to prepare my exam, so update next time. bye bye mortal!!!

Princess Joanne

Wonders...!!!

2009-09-18T21:14:00.002+08:00

How are super junior gee plus sorry sorry

My feelings now..

2009-09-18T18:41:00.000+08:00

that bitch jail me at home today!!!

Meow..

2009-09-18T02:06:00.002+08:00

I'm so F-ing Bored!!!!!!!!!

Life Suck!!!

went to school around 11.30am. Zi Zhao called me cause i'm late. Took bus 8 and went SAR club room to find him. he is listening to his music, while waiting for me. So both of us stay in the club room he play fish a fish while i study for my economics paper. Zi Zhao was talking on the phone with his friends, saying lame jokes and basically craps. Its quite entertaining and it help me to reduce stress. Then Kelvin(ST) came. Followed by Fang Min then Yee Xin then Serena then Lemon. all squeeze in the small club room. Went for exams around 2.30pm with serena and the rest went to eat lunch. Oh ya i pass to Lemon 2 photos. i know you love me Lemon. haha! i will give you more if i can find more Miyavi photos. Economic paper was ok, i just hope i pass the paper.
After the paper, went back to SAR, went mensa to buy food to eat then prepare and changed for training. Today training was fun, learn lots of new things. I WANT TO GO FOR FIRST GRADING ON THE 17TH OCT. I DON'T WANT TO LOSE OUT!!! NEED TO BUCK UP!!! TRAIN HARD HARD HIME-SAMA!!!
Today Fang Min injured her leg. And Felicia also come to training with an injured leg.. poor thing.. Get well soon Fang Min!!!
Moral of the story, never train with CY with you are already injured. haha ^^
you will need to pay back next time for my arm injuries too CY!!!!
After training went to eat dinner with the rest. Then after dinner, Zi Zhao Hammy Christopher Lin Quan and me walked to Tamp interchange. Zi Zhao and Hammy sent me home. haha thanks thanks. sent them to the bus stop so that they can take bus 39 then i walked back home.. wash up and thats all.. oh ya talking on the phone with Ridzwan and MSN with friends.
Tomorrow i shall start studying my next paper. haha ^^
ok night night people. update you all about my life next time.

Princess Joanne

Time..

2009-09-16T21:06:00.005+08:00

Happy Belated Birthday
to
Zi Zhao
&
Kunwei
!!!

that is me during my secondary school.

oh sorry people, long time i never post already. i change a new phone but very difficult to transfer file, so i think i won't upload pictures that frequent.
Alright, now i'm having my poly first vacation, and you know what, i failed 2 subjects, therefore i need to take sub papers. what a vacation.
My life now...

Work
Aikido Training
Mugging
Play

so am i enjoying? i don't know..
what you all miss? lets see..

oh i currently finish all my projects and presentations. so poly life is about projects and presentations and exams and your CCA. i love my new friends now in poly. Better than in secondary school, i don't miss secondary school, that was the worst period of my life. Now i have change in poly, and i don't want to go back to the time during my secondary school. Lets say goodbye to the ugly and nerdy Ku. I'm sure she will rest in peace in my heart. Now this is the brand new me, with confident. Think positive and a little thick-skin. And i realised something, if you think you are pretty or cute, you will become one. So think think think very very very hard that you want to change and become pretty and cute. From a ugly duckling, you can become a swan.

i will train hard for my Aikido blue-gold belt. This October will be my grading. i will buck up, i will not be behind people!! I'm weak last time, but not now. So don't try to bully me!!!! i nikkyo you then you know.. wahahahahhahaa!!!!

Aikido camp was a success and i really enjoy it.
went to pasir ris mrt to meet the rest, then went to eat at Kopitiam. Then went to play arcade. after that went to Mac to find the other people and we went to take bus 403 together. The whole bus was like book by Aikido people. i bet no one dare to provoke us as most of us brought our weapons set for the camp. *illegal gathering+gang fight* haha ^^
went we arrive, we find a room and settle down, change and prepare for training. The training was fun but also tiring, conducted by sensei sensei. Haha!! went back and prepare for dinner. after dinner, the whole group of us walked to downtown ehub, actually we wanted to play bowling but in the end we never, got a phone call and realise that it was sensei birthday. we split up to buy card and gift. We bought Choya for sensei. On the way back, i bought a bottle of Breezer(4.5% alcohol) to drink. Zi Zhao drank ST half bottle of breezer and his nose started to get red. soon he started saying crap, "the moon is so pretty today", then he started to laugh and suck the bottle, after that he blow the bottle. HE WAS DRANK haha ^^ i was not drank lucky. After that, we went back and sensei open the bottle of choya and share with us. (15% alcohol) i drank half cup of it. Then sensei let us try his white wine which is 48% alcohol. i love it!! my friend drank more than me!! haha and she became drank as she still drank a cup of red wine. Play a very horrible dare or double dare game. i drank 2 slips of Vodka from my friend. went to bathe and woke my friend up at 2am, why? cause i couldn't sleep. went to the park to play basketball and playground. 4am plus yee xin wanted to go Mac but i did not follow, drag Fang Min and Zi Zhao to the beach to enjoy the breeze. around 5am i went back to sleep, the rest continue to chat. Didn't sleep much, got woke up by my friend soon as we need to prepare to go for morning training. after that i came back to sleep, my friend stay awake with sensei chatting. woke up around breadfast time and went down to eat. PS my friend, lazy to go playground to play, went to chat with sensei and other seniors instead. Contents cannot tell you all. haha ^^ prepare and went home. went to work after that.

i want to thanks a few people. Thanks Ridzwan, Zi Zhao and some others who accompany me to study. I love you all thanks thanks thanks!!!!!!

Thats my life. will update more soon.

Princess Joanne

Poly life

2009-07-24T16:22:00.003+08:00

ok pictures will be up on my next blog updates..

so poly life is wat? onli 1 word, "Suck!"

what we busy with everyday? Presentation, projects, homework, tests, exams, cca, and many many more useless stuffs.. life sucks man..

i hope my life is carefree and not lyk this..

男人都是玩具爱情只是一场游戏

A Fun But Tiring Day..

2009-07-19T02:21:00.021+08:00

For those who never see before
the Changi Airport Terminal 3
Transit Mall
The Butterfly Garden..
wahahahahaha!!!
you all are so lucky now..
because i went there today and took a lot of pictures..
actually i go there until sian liao..
haha
dun jealous people..

This is the entrance of the butterfly garden

ok..
thats all.. i will service you all by taking more pictures of the transit
haha
ok so today when to tm in the noon with mom
went to faceshop first then we to eat at swensen, i paying the bill ok..
i so guai
after that i went to meet puay at G2000 to help her with some bill stuff
coz i got membership so can discount more..
then back to swensen continue to eat..
then mom go Giant meet dad and buy stuffs.
i went to find my ear piece and took bus 27 to airport..
for what???
TO WORK LAR
so i work work work, from 3pm to 11pm today..
around 5 plus i met Lee Xin Yi at T3 transit and we went to the butterfly garden today
wow i go there 2 times a day.. haha
ate burger king and chat with xinyi for awhile
then xinyi left with her mom. i continue to work..
today i work in the boutique shop..
also under kidztime but is a clothes shop..
haha
sian lor.. but still quite busy..
in the end my work end at 2330pm because a westerner couple bought a lot of things so i need to serve them, pack things, wait for my colledge to settle all the bill, do balancing..
took bus 27 again, then change to bus 34 home..
reach home around 12 plus..

tmr 1.30pm at downtown east do project
with gabriel, chelsea, lemon and serena..
then tomorrow work is 6pm to 11pm, i hope i wun be late..

alright thats all people...
haha
shall continue next time..

signing off
Princess Joanne
190709 3.06AM

I'm Bored~~

2009-07-16T02:21:00.001+08:00

hey crappy and irritating world. I'm BORED!!!!!!!

now right in front of my is Gabriel and Chelsea.. lol i'm so bored lar...and full after eating so much.

oh ya i want to say this:

Li Min say she cried in the bus cause she feel so stress.. then you know what that gabby say? "hey i also cry leh, very stress." (crap lar!)

ok i hate my life now, school, home, friends outside.. stress..

actually i got nothing better to say... my life craps totally now..

depressed.. i need my old friends back... lets go out tgt again my girl darlings.. i miss all of your presence.. hee hee ^^

currently watching the Liar Game, Kurosagi, Easy fortune easy life and zhong ji san guo... haha

i'm so bored!!!!!!!!!!

i hate presentation, i hate projects, i hate tests and exams... haix..

Rest In Peace King Of Pop

2009-07-08T23:31:00.003+08:00

Rest In Peace
Michael Jackson
King of POP

*I Love You Forever*

Michael Joseph Jackson (August 29, 1958–June 25, 2009) was an American recording artist, entertainer, and businessman, whose unique contributions to music and dance, along with his highly publicized personal life, made him a central part of popular culture for four decades. One of the few artists to have been inducted into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame twice, his achievements included multiple Guinness World Records—including the "Most Successful Entertainer of All Time"—13 Grammy Awards, 13 number one singles, and the sale of over 750 million records worldwide.

The seventh child of the Jackson family, he made his debut in 1968 as a member of The Jackson 5, beginning a solo career in 1971 that saw him dubbed the "King of Pop." His 1982 album Thriller remains the best-selling album of all time, with four others among the best-selling: Off the Wall (1979), Bad (1987), Dangerous (1991), and HIStory (1995). He popularized several physically complicated dance techniques, such as the robot and the moonwalk, and was widely credited with transforming the music video from a promotional tool into an art form. Videos such as Thriller, "Beat It" and "Billie Jean" helped make him the first African American to amass a strong crossover following on MTV. Videos such as "Black or White" and "Scream" made him an enduring staple on MTV well into the 1990s.

Jackson donated and raised millions of dollars for charity, much of it through his Heal the World Foundation. Aspects of his personal life, including his changing appearance, generated significant controversy. He was accused of child sexual abuse in 1993, and though no charges were brought, his health and reputation were affected, and an addiction to painkillers appears to have surfaced. He married twice and fathered three children, one of them with a surrogate mother, actions that triggered more speculation about his life. In 2005, he was tried and acquitted in connection with different child sexual abuse allegations, the stress of which caused further health and addiction issues. He died on June 25, 2009, aged 50, after suffering cardiac arrest. His July 7 memorial service was broadcast live around the world, attracting a global audience of up to one billion people.

(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Michael_Jackson)

Strength

2009-07-05T00:21:00.007+08:00

alright then, wed after school i called my mom and found out that daddy was at Bedok BLK 89. so i took bus 8 then 5 then 17 to meet him. first i went to greet all the old neighbors then went upstairs to visit Konica aunty and Honda the doggy!!
so then i went walk walk around, go see some places where i used to play with prince. walk to 7-11 to buy jolly shandy to drink, went to find dad and bus-ed 17 home.

Friday(Combine Prayer Meeting):

suntec city hall convention center hall 603

it was a very powerful evening there. 3 hours of prayer together in 1 big auditorium, i can really sense god presence that day. The Holy Spirit is so strong and i feel the strength of all of us praying together.
Main things to pray:
- sell Nexus more than 13 millions
- sell Joo Chiat office for more than 13 millions
- buy a new building for less than 13 millions
- wisdom for the architecture to build a suitable places for all the believers (facilities and rooms)
- move into the new building by the end of 2010

wow i cant wait!!! lets all pray hard together, i know if we pray hard and ask God for help, he will help us. He will give us what we want. Thank you Father :)

Friday(economic class):

got back my econs result, 57 over 100. lucky i pass.. anyway lets see what a joker can write creative answer into his test paper...

let me type out what he write:

Change in something Change in another thing
----------------------- divides by -------------------------- = this will give an answer
original something Original of another thing

Gabriel you are really a joker, but one must have the talent in order to give this type of crap answer. Haha!!! ^^

Sat:

went to work today. last time need to wake up so early for work. work for 6am to 4pm. then straight away go service. alot of people wear a mask coz they are sick. and so i also wear a mask coz i feel that my nose is itchy like going to sick liao. so i better protect myself. took picture of me wearing the mask. haha ^^

today service was fun and interesting.

Pastor Michael
Title: Judgement in the end times revival
Text: Joel 3:1-21

#1 God will judge those who harm God's people (v1-15)
#2 God will be with his people (v16-21)

i was very tired, although the service is interesting but i still feel like slping. God give me strength and energy!!

alright i shall stop here.. tmr i going chinatown with my parents.. so cya bye!! nite nite!!

shopping and eating

2009-06-30T19:40:00.000+08:00

No OB lecture today and no BCS lab lesson(haha finally.. i hate BCS lab!!!)
went to school around 11am for OB tutorial, saw my test mark.. wahahahahaha guess how much i score? 34/40(A) haha smart right.. i tell you all a secret. dun be jealous ok..ssshhh...
i never study at all, except for group study with Lemon, Serena, Gabriel-sama and Chelsea-sama at Downtown east. ok lar i know i tian cai.. hahah ^^ during class, what i doing? oh ya.. talking slacking.. but i got listen to what teacher is talking. i guess CC Leong not coming back to teach us.. haha..yeah i'm so happy :)
after class went design school for lunch. as usual, salad and green apple juice. then went to lab to do my flash hmwk. bus-ed then mrt-ed to orchard. went to paragon for chelsea-sama bag. then went to takashimaya for food. gabriel-sama left first as he got track-and-field training. the rest of us went to Far East to see cosplay costume. haha i think i buying after i got enuff money..
then mrt-ed back to tamp..
now i'm on the bus typing this blog.. haha..i love my lappy..^^

see you guys when i back home :)

signing off
Princess Joanne

死亡

2009-06-30T10:32:00.000+08:00

死亡可怕吗？
你对死亡有恐惧吗？
有人说，死亡是生命来到了终点。
也有人说死亡是一种转捩点，是新的开始。
你觉得呢？

究竟是人生无常，还是一切都有定时？
什么是“无常”？
什么是“定时”？

“无常”的意思能说是“不正常”吗？
“人生无常”的意思是人生有很多变数，我们也不知道会有何事发生。
就像是“喜怒无常”，意思是情绪不定，一直改变。

“定时”又是什么意思呢？
每样东西都有它存在的时间。
问题是“长”还是“短"。
人生都有定时，时间到，就是人生走到了尽头，将面临死亡。
这是结束还是新的开始？

对我而言，死亡并不可怕。
俗话说的好“善有善报，恶有恶报，不是不报，时辰未到”
白日不做亏心事，夜半敲门也不惊。
所以我们要多做好事，帮助别人。

死亡是一种过程，
是一种灵魂得以从这肉体释放的过程。
灵魂离开肉体展开新旅程。
这是一种解脱，能让你得到自由。

那你觉得死亡是什么？
你还害怕死亡吗？

YAY!

2009-06-28T21:37:00.003+08:00

today i went to T3 for my job interview.. waiting for my working schedule now..
then went to simei to look at a flat. too small.. :( dun intend to buy..
then took bus 38 with mom to tampines mall..
we went to cotton on to see long sleeve clothes but dont have i want de..
went to G2000 and bought 2 formal suits. a black one and a white one V($.$)V

tomorrow school... awww.. I'm tired... :(

alright i shall stop here.. bye bye darlings ^^

New Life

2009-06-26T22:47:00.005+08:00

Alright, very long never blog. so... what i did these few days..

okay.. so i went to east coast park with chelsea-sama and gabriel-sama. Actually that day should be class outing to sentosa beach, but in the end due to some crap reason the outing was cancel, so we 3 decided to go east coast park together.
1st : meet at bedok interchange and take bus 16.
2nd : went to play sand and build sand castle. bury gabriel in the sand. play frisbee.
3rd : wash up
4th : went to the bicycle shop to rent bicycle ($10 for 5 hours)
5th : cycle to the hawker center to have lunch
6th : cycle back and rest in front of McDonald.
7th : continue to cycle to big splash (Chelsea-sama want to see her skates wheels)
8th : went to play sand and build sand castle. play frisbee.
9th : cycle back and return the bicycles.
10th : wash up
11th : took bus back to tampines interchange
12th : sent gabriel-sama to bus 72 and sent chelsea-sama to bus stop to take bus 168
13th : walk home
14th : wash up

haha yeah thats all for the east coast park trip.
i will remember these. good memories..
Thank you my darlings. i have a great day because of you two. LOVES ^^

Finish most of the projects and reports... presentation next...

Went to watch AYG football match (South Korea vs China) at TP sport complex. South Korea win...

Yesterday:

went to school for IntHt tutorial, after class went to KFC to eat with Serena. the took bus 23 to interchange to meet Lemon. Went to Kopitiam to see her eat lunch. Then we walk walk around, went Century Square Comic Connection to find her Vampire Knight necklace. Went to Tampines 1 to walk walk. went to Mrt to meet Alvin for my Jay Chou tee and necklace. went to Tampines Library and borrowed 2 books. took bus 15 back to school. went school library to play computer. get ready for aikido cca. after aikido... the interesting part comes. before cca i went to the locker to take my gee. i left my wallet on the floor. in the end after my cca i cant find my wallet. suppose to go Jie Qi birthday BBQ but in the end because of my fault, did not go for the BBQ Charlet. called Gabriel and Chelsea sama to save me. called DBS bank and called the police to report lost and cancel my cards. met them in front of the school library and we walk to the nearest police division to make a report. went for dinner after report, walk to bus stop and home.
(I'm jealous, you know who make me feel jealous. that person own up him/herself. school --> sengkang polyclinic --> chinatown --> city hall, suntec, Singapore river, merlion --> school. But i'm happy that you enjoy yourself, i feel that you are more cheerful now. Maybe thats *PS: Internal jokes therefore alot of things not mention here. ^^

Today:

woke up late, did not go for RHT lecture. went back school to take my wallet from the general office. went to the library to meet gabriel-sama, chelsea-sama, lemon and serena. do comm skills and discuss abit about the IntHt project. Hazel came. went to tampines interchange with serena and hazel. went to POSB bank to make my card (I change to a GO! card) took bus 38 to simei and to XinYi house. wait for the rest and play monopoly till 7.30pm. Had dinner at Eighteen Chefs at east point. today is Ladies Night. Eat and laugh.. I truely enjoy my life today. Thanks girls, i love you alot ^^ make me miss those days...
(PS: 2 people in your own world, isolated from us. just joking. but i'm happy because i can see you two are happy with the relationship.) --> Internal jokes. ask me personally.. ^^

i enjoy my life now. i'm glad that prince reply my message finally. i miss him more now...

Promises:
1) i will say grace for all my meals from today onward.
2) i will try to attend church service every week unless i got work.
3) i will not eat KFC or McDonald from today onward.
4) i will change my diet; only eat salad for lunch (PS: depend whether i can get salad, if not i will eat other healthy food)
5) be nice be true

i shall continue next time. need to sleep early, tomorrow morning shift :(

quitting my flower shop job and change to toy shop...

Pictures speaks a thousand words...

pictures taken from East Coast Park trip. Only gabriel-sama, chelsea-sama and me.

AYG football match hold at TP sport complex. (South Korea VS China)

what are we doing? its lecture time ok people. 2 talking and 1 reading storybook. me?! i slacking and taking photos...

I'm bored so i start taking photo during lecture.

more pictures will be up tomorrow...

I LOVE YOU ENG PUAY SHAN
PUAY PUAY DARLING

I LOVE YOU LEE XINYI
MY FOREVER DA LEE DARLING

I LOVE YOU ALL:
HAZEL/SHU YING/HUI YI/GLADYS

signing off
Princess Joanne

I believe

2009-06-16T01:51:00.002+08:00

slpt at 10.30pm ytd and woke up at 3am, nose bleed, nv drink enuff water. woke up arnd 10am to prepare and went to ehub to find my darlings and the extra one.. haha :P doing project at Tesire Cafe, drank mushroom soup and ate a black forest cake. left the place arnd 5 and we walk to the arcade to take neoprints. then we walked to the bus stop and left...

I'm been hiding my feelings this few days.. i feel like crying.. i feel like letting go my emotions.. sry people if i give you all a "black face".. i been thinking alot of things nowadays, so it will affect my mood abit.. things i thinking of: Prince, BF, my life.. i just cant stop thinking lar..

special thanks: thanks to my darling serena. you make me feel better. next time we hold hands ok when go out.. haha :P

i get jealous when i see couples on the street... feel so lonely sometimes.. nevermind, i got my guardian angel and my Hiro to accompany. The sky will accompany me.. the link between prince and me.. i love the sky..

time flies veri veri fast.. 2 plus now.. but i'm not slpy..

listening to songs.. make me emo..

i not going to disturb prince.. i will control my feelings. he need to concentrate on his studies.. he got his own life.. i will... i will... i will...

for my dear friend.. stay strong alright.. i bless your relationship with him will last long.. overcome all the problems together.. stay together at times of troubles. i can see he really like you.. so my darling dont be afraid.. anything can talk to me ok.. i dont mind you share your feelings with me or throw all your feeling to me.. can treat me lyk a dustbin. if you wan to share secret pls tell me. and i will zip my mouth.. hee hee :p

for my p darling.. if you got problem can share with me ok.. dun keep things inside you.. dun be like me.. i love you :)

alright i think i will stop here..

good night my friends..

signing off
Princess Joanne

the second song you send me.. i will remember you forever...

My dream

2009-06-14T21:21:00.004+08:00

i really want to share with you people. Last night i had a dream... i dreamed that i got marry with 183 club Ming Dao!!!haha ok it goes like this...

i dreamt that i was holding his hand and walking, then i found out i was in a church, wearing a white gown. Mingdao was beside me. so blah blah blah..
then the next thing i dream about he and me went for my friend wedding.
then the next thing i dream was my friend and i went for a event and i called Mingdao to send me home. I still can rmb the time, he said he going to fetch me in his car around 12 to 1230pm.
then he really appear and bring me to eat wantan mee first.
then then then...
my mom pull away my blanket and i woke up... haix.. how i wish the dream will continue.. how i wish it will come true.. haha..
Hey people is mingdao leh.. the shuai shuai yet abit cute de mingdao leh.. in my dream he is sure a gentleman.. so cool.. guys out there dun jealous ok.. haha :P

ok now..
projects and projects.. some going to due soon.. so i need to complete it but no mood. i shall force myself to do it.. anyway.. i miss the girls and guys from TPSS.. ESPECIALLY THE GIRLS.. MY GIRLS DARLINGS.. I MISS YOU ALL!!!!
things are getting complicated now.. my mood also changes very fast.. i dont know how to face some people too.. i guess it is time for me to put on my mask..

i miss my bf..

some words are not to be told out.. some feelings are not suppose to show out.. there are secret and feeling that i trying to hide.. secret that cannot be told.. feelings that will make things complicated..

been emo-ing this few days too.. i miss prince more and more..
just like a vampire, my hunger(missing him), my blood/food (his pictures and memories)

I'm a emo girl.. fallen angel

Normal

2009-05-28T09:30:00.002+08:00

I'm in class now, having InHt tutorial now.. our group is doing our presentation, Japan tour, our dream destination. haha.. not bad lar... (Lemon is so dramatic!!!~) i really want to go japan to relax lor.. so stress and pack now.. i really want some freedom to relax myself. everyonoe have their own problems lar... but why mine is more than others..
ytd mom was mad again. scold scold scold, nag nag nag.. like a yound kids.. "why you treatme lyk this.." so childish.. why all adults are childish???!!!!
school was alright for me, tests coming soon lar.. cca and holidays and works.. i going to die liao.. i hate projects!!!! ok nvm.. poly poly poly, that is wat i choose so i will hold on uh..Gambatte yo Hime!!

for my C darling to type: (ops she dun wan to type)

things come things go..

my heavenly father. I'm always good now. except some time i'm late for school.
please father, i beg you. let me go back to the place i belong. i wan to go back to your side.. Heaven. I dun wan to be a fallen angel and suffer on earth. oh god! please let me go back...
i will i will be good.. i know my mistakes..

i still can remember the promise i make with you God. please grant my wish..
an exchange of my memorise..

a moment to remember.. i will try to remember all the things happen around me before everything disappear in my mind..

when will be the day i leave this world?

to my frenz: i know there are secret that cannot be told. i will shut my month ok.. but if you got anything or need some one beside you, a shoulder, a hug, juz come to me ok. feel free to tok to me ok.. cheer up girl :)

alright i think i will stop here and continue next time. my life is so boring.. nth to write..

today got aikido training..Hime-sama.

Hiro-kun, ogenki desu ka?

signing off
Princess Joanne

Happy Birthday

2009-05-20T00:42:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday
to the
Princess

thanks to all the people who texts or msn tell me happy birthday.. thanks for rmb me.. :)

Prince, pls rmb me.. i juz wan you to say happy birthday to me..please... sob sob sob...

simple and nice.. i juz wan my bdae to be simple and peaceful.. theres shao wei and jay chou pei wo.. hee hee i happy enuff le..

my birthday wishes..
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
Bu neng shuo de mi mi.. cnnt tell you all haha :D

PS: I dun lyk to receive F&B present. i make it clear here. i lyk things that i can keep and rmb dun ltr come back to me say why say dunu lyk your present ok.. haha :P dun take it too seriously ppl..

Long time no POST

2009-05-01T00:01:00.003+08:00

i know i really very long never blog liao, coz dun really got the mood to blog.. ahaha..anw skool starts and it is the end of 2nd week. thats fast.. okok..so poly is cool yet.. l0l quite sian oso..every day is lec lec lec, tut tut tut, lab lab lab.. ahaha.. no one really listen and no one really care oso..haha anw.. life there is free and easy and no one really care about you.. haha.. but ppl there are much more friendly and cheerful. haha..
so last fri got my course LRM orientation. not bad lar. played amazing race..haha and go home liao..got my LRM file and hotdog bun as tea break food...

ok so today onli got 1 tut and after that.. haha nth better to do.. so with the rest of the class go to lab to config their lappy. then i went off to meet up darling for lunch, he sent me to int and he left for work again. haha thkx darling to squeeze out your lunch break for me..all the way from eunos leh.. xin ku le :P then then then.. i bus-ed back to skool to find chelsea and lemon. they were in the library doing the BCS hwk. so i use chelsea lappy to do some parts of the work. haha :P then then then go for cca, reg and train till arnd 7.30pm. bus-ed home and thats my life..
tmr going to buy my lappy at mega court.. haha.. Sony VAIO here i come.. shld i buy SR or CS??

i love my skool now and my friends :))))
and i love my darling oso veri much.. hor hor hor ed... dun say i nv mention you on my blog.. i give you a para leh.. haha..teach me play squash.. haha.. and thkx for the cd <333333>

PS: can we have more bus 8 or free shuttle bus every where. i dun wan to walk to skool every single day.. so tiring..

PSS: Gackt and Yamapi and Aarron Yan and many many many many many many more shuai ge i love them coz they are SEXY AND SIZZLING HOT!!!! WAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! MORE SHUAI GE IN SINGAPORE STREET PLEASE.. I NEED MORE EYE CANDIES... or i got my darling and prince jiu enuff le.. haha???!!!! i dun think so...

Happy and sad day...

2009-04-11T01:18:00.009+08:00

Happy Birthday Gladys!!!

today is the 10th April. 2 big big things today happen.
1st: my beloved qin ai de da xiao jie gladys birthday(turn 17)
2nd: my 2nd uncle's daughter wedding.

ok so today morning wake up early to go my uncle house to send my cousin. took moi moi jie jie de car there. everyone squeeze.. haha.. finally we reached.
then the groom came. the sisters having fun with the groom and want him to do all sort of things before letting him in. eating cucumber, chilli and something sweet. before entering the 1st gate. then the 2nd gate, the groom have to eat 2 gummy bear from a plate of melted ice cream plus cream. then 3rd gate, the groom have to sing until the bride happy to let him in(touch her heart). 4th door, writing a pledge to the bride before entering her room. and all this not to forget... BIG BIG ANG BAO haha.. although Mark is angmo but he quite nice and friendly. he also enjoying the whole process. then i follow the bride and also with other cousins to the hotel so that the bride can change clothes. came back uncle house first and wait for the bride to arrive back home. got the tea ceremony, oh ya in the hotel i get 1 angbao coz i become the "sister" help the bride pull her dress, then i get another angbao from the tea ceremony. wahaha.. i saw Mark mom and sister, all angmo.. ahaha.. Ku family only a few know english, i'm one of the fews. so i can talk with them. then there is a buffet lunch at uncle house and after the lunch came back home to rest.
went out again arnd 6 plus, uncle tiong came to fetch me and dad to Hotel Hyatt for the wedding dinner. blah blah blah.. haha drunk wine.. l0l siting at VIP seats. i hate sitting with those elders. haix.. then eat eat eat.. alot of guys drunk and gone crazy. so bore and i start playing with my phone and sms-ing darling. alright those pictures will tell the rest of the things.. haha.. the glass of red wine is mine and i finish it.. haha.. I'm not drunk ok.. l0l then uncle tiong drove us back home...
tmr got work again at 9.30am to 1.30am.. haha sianx...
anw this is how my working place look like... what a small and cute working space. but alot of things to do when busy.. haha.. many many things still need to learn.. wahhaahaha..
tmr i sure upload gladys bday celebration pic... hee hee :)

不够勇敢

2009-04-11T01:09:00.003+08:00

歌手：王子变青蛙歌曲：不够勇敢 - VJ
曲:victor lau |词:toro victor lau

守在你身边看你每一个笑脸
笑得那么甜是他给了你誓言
不敢有埋怨都是我心甘情愿
或许有一天我的爱你能看见
一天一点你渐渐走远
我却像空气被忽略
只怪我的爱不够勇敢
一直沉默的作你的依赖
让一切石沉大海
baby now i need you by my side
过去的一切该怎么放开
without you i can't fall in love again
without you i can't
oh baby i can't fall in love again
(i can't never fall in love)

til the end of time in a world so close
to me

i'm just so in love with a girl who's in
my heart

each and everyday i wanna have you next
to me

and i say to the world i'll never let it
end
明明知道直到有一天
发现你不再有笑脸

不够勇敢 - VJ 歌词由---热心网友qwe 提供

This song will help me say out my feelings to you...

Dandelion's Promises

2009-04-05T01:53:00.002+08:00

been missing you this few days, thinking and keep thinking of our past.. time really flies. soon we are on separate ways. soon you do not need me any more. i can still remember the time i played your favorite game on my gameboy, i won, first time i won that game and i wanted to show you. i phoned you and you say you will come to meet me. i waited patiently behind your dad shop, sitting at the gate, hoping to see you. but you didn't. i phoned you and you say you will come. from afternoon to night, to your father closed the shop, you didn't turn up... many times you broke your promises but i still wait and hope you will come back to me. is it time for me to give up on you? you never answer my calls, you never reply my smses... is that the way you treating me? are you trying to tell me to stop and give up. we will never meet again? all i want is to hear your voice, all i want is to see you. i didn't ask much, i will not force you to be with me. all i want to know is you are good and hows life for you. like a friend, a buddy, someone close to you. i just want to care for you. please stop, please stop. i'm suffering because of you. and you are the only one who can stop this.
you are the only key that can open my heart and stop these. maybe one day i will really and truly fall in love with someone but i will always remember you...
tears fall at night, every drop shows how much i miss you... but all these i can't show any one but keep these tears to myself. songs after songs, songs after songs..

i love the sky for one reason. that is the only thing we shared now. both of us live under this sky. talking to the sky hope that the wind will pass the words for me to you. hope one day you can hear these words. telling myself "we still have something in common." look up at the sky and smile...

People request

2009-03-15T13:27:00.006+08:00

didn't feel like blogging actually. no mood to type my life out. alright these few days went out with bf and parents and friends, thats all my life?! yeah... now i'm broke, no money no money no money...

2 days ago went to my cousin house to see my nephews, 3 girls 1 boy.
the baby girl is so cute. thats her. her name is Mei Qi sleeping soundly, dare not touch her, scare woke her up she will start crying.
life is so weak yet so strong. i can't believe all of us grow up from this tiny size to a full grown adult.

my another nephew, he is called Qing Rui. cute hor?! hug him yesterday. kind of scary coz still like soft soft de, scare his bone break like that. he is very strong and is a kai xin guo. but he shout and cry very loud.

it is a very noisy and crowded day at my cousin house coz kids running a shouting about.
more pictures... my 2 other nephew..
the white clothes angel is my nephew called Qi Min. Cute ba.. haha.. cute but her cry and shout is super loud, all of us call her Ku Bao means Cry Baby. haha :P

btw the purple clothes aunty is my 3rd aunty. haha she sb teng me de.. cook so much food for me that day. got 2 fish, 1 veg, 1 meat and soup and rice.. wahahaha.. nv eat she cook de for 2 years le.. i miss it so so much and i ate sb lots that day.. damn nice de lar... i think i stay wif her i will grow fatter.. hahahahahahaha

after that me and dad went off alone coz cousin need to bring my aunty to the checkpoint to "re-chop" her passport. we went to tiong bahru to walk arnd and eat ice cream, drink coffee at kopitiam. then we mrt-ed back to tampines and bus-ed home.
thats all for that day...

yesterday went out with my mom, go her frenz house at bukit panjang. far hor, we bus-ed there. her 2 sons shuai lar... haha.. then she chatted wif her frenz for a veri long time and i play wif her doggy, casper, damn guai de lor the doggy, make me feel lyk having one..
then we left and walk arnd BPP, Bukit Panjang Plaza, and bus-ed back to tampines. went to alano and this fashion. bought a shorts, a vest, and a bra at another shop.. haha *paiseh*.
yesterday i really can eat sia.. haha.. when i become a hungry ghost le?! growing fatter, oh no! mom keep saying i pi gu da but the front not da so cnnt wear qi pao.. shit sia.. i want ok. got tummy oso cannot.. nid to lose more weight then.. haix.. lose weight.. ok i shall go run more..
xinyi pei wo...!!!!! haha :P

went to see luo zhi xiang that day.. i lazy to upload those pics coz got alot leh.. ppl want to see ask from me, let you see from my hp.

oh ya i selling away my luo zhi xiang album + autograph poster at $60( price can still negotiable) this is the singapore version and its still in good condition, brand new. tell me if you interested.

bf get well soon ok :P
and good luck for your exam..

4 months and 15 days no news from you my prince... i miss you a lot.. just hope you are well and happy.. love you <333

想

2009-03-02T00:20:00.008+08:00

yesterday i dream about you. Long time never see that charming face. Why is it that in my dreams i still can't get close to you? So near yet so far. Just like a glass separating us. The pain in my heart, it cuts and wounded it. Why you still can't feel my heart is bleeding, why you can't feel my existent? It stop beating, I stop breathing. I miss you =(

i still can remember the dream, you were smiling at me but you turn and left me. Left me alone there waiting for you there, but you just keep walking away. Your back become blur and soon disappear. Left me, left me, left me, left me, left me standing there...

The time you let go my hand, the last time you hold my hand. I can still remember that scene. The time, the place, you and me. nothing change, except... i have lost you and the air no longer have your scent. I miss that hand. can i just hold it one more time?

i can still remember all the times we spent together... every songs seems to tell our story... only make me miss you more and more...

Every time i listen to this 2 songs, i thought of you. The first 2 songs you send and introduce me to listen...

我会学着放弃你，是因为我太爱你。

Just

2009-02-28T23:38:00.002+08:00

老天好像真的把我的感觉都收走了，没了笑，忘了哭，不懂什么是痛。没有亲情，没有感情，没有友情。我只相信天父，我只相信天使，我只相信自己。相信总有一天我会回到我的身份，回到天上去守护我爱的人。天父好希望您能快点赐回我的翅膀，让我回到您身边。我祈祷，我祝福，我感动。

-- 被堕落到反间的天使

Maybe you will say i'm stupid, maybe you will say i got some mental problem. I don't care! Everyone will have their own beliefs, everyone will have their own set of mind. Sometimes i think that all these are not true too, but it is a way to comfort myself, so that i can relay on something when I'm down. I want to be an angel, i believe i can be one. I want to love and care the people and animals around me. I want to help as many people as possible. Guardian Angel...

If you look at the sky, look at the sea, listen to the winds, listen to the waves. They will give you peace and they will share with you things they see and heard. Remember, everyone is not alone, your guardian angel will always be there for you. And not to forget, our dear God, our Father, our Lord, our Saviour... I Love you...

To my friends, i love to spend the time we are together, i will remember them forever and cherish the time we are together. i enjoy the fun and chats we have. Friends forever... I love you girls and boys.. hee hee :D

To my darling, i enjoy the time i spend with you, i hope we can meet more often, i hope this will last. Thanks for your understanding. Thanks for your everything.. Aishiteru <333

To my prince, please do not ignore me. I miss you so so much. please contact me... you are the only one who can end my miseries. I Love you my prince. I just hope you will understand my feeling. If you want to go, please don't do it this way, I'm hurt... maybe i just need to learn how to let go. maybe this is reality, maybe maybe maybe... ... i miss your voice, i miss your face, i miss your body temperature.. i miss your everything.. I Love You

世上只有杰伦好

2009-02-24T17:32:00.002+08:00

世上只有杰伦好，拥有了杰伦像拥有个宝。
投进杰伦的怀抱，幸福哪里找？
没有杰伦真烦恼，没有了杰伦我会死掉。
没有杰伦的音乐了，世界末日了。

i change the 世上只有妈妈好 to this.
i guess all the mother in this world is going to hate me.
but haha.. who cares.. i love my Jay darling too much le..
hee hee =D

Quizes again...

2009-02-21T15:44:00.002+08:00

You Are A Woman!

Congratulations, you've made it to adulthood.

You're emotionally mature, responsible, and unlikely to act out.

You accept that life is hard - and do your best to keep things upbeat.

This makes you the perfect girlfriend... or even wife!

Are You A Girl Or a Woman?

Your EQ is 133

You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.

You are warm and open. Even when life gets you down, you're unafraid of the world and its challenges.

You are comfortable with who you are. And you accept your weaknesses - as well as the weaknesses of others.

While you are quite stable, you don't respond perfectly to every bad situation that comes up.

But you have enough emotional intelligence to know when you need a course correction.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

Your Ideal Pet is a Cat

You're both aloof, introverted, and moody.

And your friends secretly wish that you were declawed!

What's Your Ideal Pet?

But i still prefer a doggy leh.. hee hee :P

You Are a Designer Bikini!

You're all for the beach, if it's at the best resort sipping the best cocktails.

And you love to look fabulous in a couture bikini.

What Kind of Bikini Are You?

You Should Own a Beagle

Low maintenance, very friendly, and sturdy.

What Kind of Dog Should You Have?

but i still prefer a german sherpherd or a golden retriver

You Crave an Important Life

Your dream is to life a live a life that leaves a mark.

You'd like to have a mission or journey to complete, even if it takes years.

You want your life to be meaningful, and having a final goal brings you meaning.

You'd like to accomplish something big, if only to inspire others to believe it can be done.

The Sunset Test

Your Style is Trashy

Whoops! You've got to pull up those pants again

While you may have the body to get away with it...

You're over the top style is getting a bit old

Trade in your short shorts for a knee length sundress

And you'll catch the eye of a quality gentleman :-)

Is Your Date Fashion Style Classy, Sassy, or Trashy?

You Are Picky When it Counts

Like most sane women, you want a great guy who will treat you well.

But you're also willing to put up with a few flaws in your Mr. Right

You should congratulate yourself on having a realistic approach to dating.

You probably have quite a few great guys you can date!

Are You Too Picky When It Comes To Men?

It's 70% Love and 30% Lust

You and your guy are truly in love, even if that spark seems to be a little dimmer.

Are Your Feelings For Him Lust or Love?

You Can Make 68% of Your Crushes Fall in Love With You

Your seduction skills are practically legendary. You know how to close the deal.

Just don't let someone you're really into get the better of you!

As long as you keep up your end of the flirting game, you'll get the prize at the end.

Can You Make Anyone Fall in Love With You?

You are 73% Taurus

You are 73% Taurus

How Taurus Are You?

Your Relationship Will Last For A While!

This may be hard for you to swallow, but you and your guy might not last

At least not forever. He's somewhere between Mr. Right... and Mr. Right Now

No doubt your guy is a great catch - and generally good to you

The odds are, however, that someone better is out there!

How Long Will Your Relationship With Your Guy Last?

Lonely Celebration

2009-02-15T00:01:00.003+08:00

First of all...

Happy
Valentine Day
!!!

ok so was stuck at home to help packing... sorry my bf i cannot go out with you today.. we postpone ok =D so stay home whole day also don't know what to do.. online whole day.. sianz.. yesterday went to bugis with parents to have lunch, buy things and buy shoes (bought 2 pairs, heart ache coz is i pay de) ok this few days.. busy with my flyers job.. went to bedok/simei and tanjong katong to give.. sb hot de.. kana sun burn..
First day, went to bedok/simei, then near to the end start to rain.. saw a dog at the gate kana rain and got wet.. so use umbrella to help it shade instead of shading gladys.. (ps: sry hor.. coz the dog look more pathetic than you so i help it instead).
Second day, went to tanjong katong, house big big over there, like palace, i want to live there. be a princess there.. 我要嫁给有钱人！haha =D then on the way see doggy play with doggy.. all bark at me, but some bark liao then stop. coz i say hi and talk to them.. they know i am a good person, 天使心肠, wun hurt them de.. haha.. mr yeo send us back to ps.. took bus 17 from there..
wed going to ecp with GFs and BF.. hee hee.. finally i can see him le.. i miss him so badly.. hee hee :P
sry lar ok.. i pei you tok tok ma.. meet up muz plan de.. but i try to go out more often ok.. hee hee see i so guai :P
rmb the thing you going to give me, and i will give you mine on wed.. so ya hee hee =D

alright i will stop here..

good night my world...

signing off
Princess Joanne
I Love You BF Darling
I miss you my prince.. about 2 month s without your news.. that is torture..
i miss you i miss you i miss you
please dont treat me this way...
PLease hel p me end my misery

ok i think enough.. will put more next time =D

说爱我

2009-02-13T19:47:00.000+08:00

Boys over flowers OST

2009-02-11T01:15:00.000+08:00

Boys Over Flowers OST

innocent love..

2009-02-06T22:03:00.003+08:00

A Moment To Remember

I Love this movie so much..
classic, sad, romantic...

Today...
I have a moment to remember...
Thanks
to you...
:)

My new darling...

2009-02-05T11:05:00.004+08:00

Background information
Birth name	김현중 (Kim Hyun Joong)
Born	June 6, 1986 (1986-06-06) (age 22)
Origin	Seoul, South Korea
Genre(s)	K-Pop, Pop, J-Pop, Ballads
Occupation(s)	Singer, Actor
Years active	2005–Present
Label(s)	DSP Entertainment
Associated acts	SS501

Filmography

Boys Over Flowers,(KBS2, 2009)...as Yoon Ji Hoo (Hanazawa Rui)
We Got Married 2008
Nonstop 5 (Episode 208, MBC, 2005)
Can Love Be Refilled? Sitcom (KBS2, 2005)

Kim Hyun Joong (Korean: 김현중, born June 6, 1986) is a South Korean male singer, actor and leader of boyband SS501.

Career

He and his SS501 members appeared in Park Kyung Lim's show Thank You For Waking Us Up and Thank You For Raising Us in 2006, where he proved to be a heavy sleeper.

He joined the cast of MBC variety reality show We Got Married on 11 May 2008, with Hwang Bo, who is 6 years his senior. They achieved high popularity, garnering attention to Hyun Joong especially, after which he was cast in the Korean version of Boys Over Flowers (TV Series)/Hana Yori Dango as one of the members of the famous F4.

Hyun Joong and Hwangbo made their official exit from We Got Married on December 14, 2008.

In the hit-series, Boys Over Flowers, Kim plays part of the love-triangle, the love-triangle is recently a hit.

Due to the busy schedules, SS501's album was pushed back to April 2009, and instead a subgroup Triple-S, consisting on members Kim Hyung Joon, Heo Youngsaeng and Kim Kyujong, will continue activities with the release of a mini-album titled U R Man. So cute.

External links

SS501's official site

(information taken from wikipedia.com)
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kim_Hyun_Joong

Wet and Happy day...

2009-02-05T10:34:00.003+08:00

~4th Feb 2009~

woke up around 8am
and slack till 10 plus
it is my turn to wash up and prepared my stuff for the outing..
called Felicia coz know she cannot wake up without morning call..
waited for her to arrive my house arnd 11.50am
and both or us took a bus to bedok int
(i hate the bus fare now, why i become adult fare, NOT FAIR!!!)
both of us were early so we waited for the rest..
then xin yi and hui yi reached, pei them go buy pao and i go buy bubble tea..
back to int to wait for other ppl..
after that shu ying and hazel arrive.. all 4 of them go mrt station to top up card..
then my xiao jie reached follow by rachel
(rachel got work so cnnt join us)
the LAST one to arrive is Puay Puay!!!
she reach still ask am i the last one.. haha yes!!!
waited for the 4 to come back and we took bus 16 to ecp
lunch-ed at ecp mac and suddenly rain..
slack for arnd 2 hours in mac to wait for the rain to stop..
playing my internet tablet to play songs and watch anime.. haha
funny lar..
then see rain lyk going to stop go out rent bicycle..
felicia left to go fetch her lao gong..
the rest rent the bicycle but scare rain again so the uncle veri gd give them FOC the next time they ride..
any way they pay of the bicycle already so juz postpone the dates..
ok i will plan another one for you all de.. hope it dun rain again..
haha
left me and gladys..
we cycle to the end of ecp and on the way it was super quiet..
we sing and shout and talk loud loud... no one cares coz there is no one..
haha
reach the end and found a shelter to rest..
wait for rain to stop and chat..
long long chat since last time le..
hao huai nian..
(ok i smile not nice ytd coz veri cold in the rain hee hee XP)
then we decided to cycle back..
on the way oso veri funny.. haha
no one using the bicycle track so onli 2 can any how cycle.. haha
travel to the other side of ecp and play on the beach and stone..
saw the time and quickly rush back..
suddenly rain veri heavily and both of us was drenched..
return to bike and run back in the rain to mac
meet felicia and her lao gong there..
change clothes.. so cold lor..
drank a cup and milk and off we go home..
(top one is mine, the smile face is xiao jie de)
on the way saw this machine and wanted the toy..
damn it.. spend 3 bucks still cnnt take.. :(
took bus 31 to tamp int
on the bus saw qi hui and simin..
chat chat awhile and they arrive at bedok int..
we continue..
haha
near the end of the journey xiao jie sit beside me..
haha
i can lie on her shoulder..
hee hee
nice nice..
:P
reach tamp int..
acc-ed her to wait for her bus 81
walked home alone..
was bored and wanted to call xiao jie.. then met Jason and his friend..
haha..
talk talk abit and left coz he know i haven eat and rest...
(sorry for being cool to you and giving you this type of altitude. we are still good bro and sis)
reach home eat and play com awhile..
then bathe and play com again..
slept arnd 12 plus coz eat medi..
haha..

thats all for my life ytd..

i miss you guys alot X)X)X)X)X)

My quiz results

2009-02-03T12:17:00.003+08:00

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Losing Someone You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either!
Being Alone
Looked down on
Death
Disappointment
Where Your life is Going
Commitment
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

What type of person do you attract? Your Result: You attract models! Congrats, something about you makes those model-quality people flock to you. This is good for obvious reasons - they look great, just having them nearby attracts other models, and it opens doors for you - like exclusive clubs and whatnot. If you are seeking pure physical beauty, you are all set. If you are seeking someone that is not cynical and slightly bitter about humans in general, someone focused on the human condition and intellect, then you are out of luck - but who cares, you attract models!
You attract artsy people!
You attract Yuppies!
You attract unstable people!
You attract geeks!
You attract rednecks!
What type of person do you attract? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

You Feel Like You Don't Fit In 28% Of The Time

You experience the ups and downs of life, yet you maintain a positive outlook throughout. You definitely do have a place in the world. There are times when you struggle, yet you persevere. Good going.

Do You Have a Place in This World?
Take More Quizzes

What Be Your Nerd Type? Your Result: Social Nerd You're interested in things such as politics, psychology, child care, and peace. I wouldn't go so far as to call you a hippie, but some of you may be tree-huggers. You're the type of people who are interested in bettering the world. You're possible the least nerdy of them all; unless you participate in other activies that paled your nerdiness compared to your involvement in social activities. Whatever the case, we could still use more of you around. ^_^
Musician
Drama Nerd
Science/Math Nerd
Gamer/Computer Nerd
Anime Nerd
Artistic Nerd
Literature Nerd
What Be Your Nerd Type? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

I'm kind of bored so i tried those quiz...
Kind of fun and interesting...

missing you..

2009-01-29T17:02:00.002+08:00

好想你啊！为什么？一个人的时候总想起和你的记忆。好想哭，却发现已经哭到没眼泪了。能回去吗？好想永远和你在一起，回来吧？好吗？

Happy Chinese New Year!!!! 2009

2009-01-25T20:56:00.002+08:00

Another Chinese New Year!!! Happy to all... Nothing to update about my life so i will put some meaningful songs. Maybe you can listen and then think about the meanings yourself...
Remember, treasure those around you...

enjoy... :)

晴天娃娃

2009-01-19T00:00:00.000+08:00

Party

2009-01-18T23:33:00.003+08:00

today went for jay birthday party at St James power station dragonfly. took at train and reach harbourfront at 12pm met keljin on the train already then wait for others. went to eat subway tgt since no one is lining up for the party yet. then arnd 1 to 2 plus we walk there.. on the way got one sales person promote his product, he help rachel twist her hair make it more curl, $160 for that thing. then after that walk to st james. still no one.. so waited at the entrance there.. play cards and talk talk awhile. time just past like this, bery fast 4pm le.. but the show starts 40 mins late.. haha.. then watch jay MVs and some making.. all i watched b4 de.. so waste of time?! no lar.. at least can see jay darling ma.. didnt get to be chosen to cut his cake, idiot :( nvm will have other chances de.. then jay got a video for us.. next year or this year he is coming for autograph session??!!! yahoo.. i will queue up 12 hours b4 it starts i guess.. haha.. watched his new mv long zhan qi shi, not bad lar.. haha.. jiayou jay!!! then walk out of st james..haha went vivo city then harbourfront again.. haha.. took mrt home.. reach house downstair the jason gor gor from the salon talk to me.. haha..
tmr goin to take my last week pay at office, then go chinatown find frenz.. will spend money again tmr.. haha..
today preorder jay dvd spend 30 bucks, get free poster.. haha.. i love you jay.. happy birthday..

My Darling Jay

2009-01-18T23:08:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday
生日快乐

祝杰伦，身体健康，事业有成，每天都开心。

希望更多人能听到您的音乐，心情开心一点，让这个世界更好更美。希望更多人看到您的才华，看见您的努力。希望大家因为您而成为好朋友，就像一家庭，快快乐乐，充满喜悦的过每一天。

我永远支持您，您的音乐与其它作品，因为您是周杰伦。永不改变的周杰伦。永远的杰王子！永远的音乐才子！

“我不改变我的风格，继续咬字不清，作出最好的作品，因为我是周杰伦！”

The Angel

2009-01-14T23:06:00.002+08:00

No mood to upload those photos yet, will do it after i settle my JAE choices.

I really can't communicate with my mother. Any one can tell me what to do?

Many things happen this few days, and i really don't want to mention them and remember them.

I hope Heavenly Father let me go back to him soon, return me my wings, set me free.

If death can solve all problems, i wish to die..

I miss you so so much, please don't avoid me... please don't MIA my prince... I need you :(

Miss Lonely still finding her Mr Lonely... any good candidates? xP

Sky

2009-01-02T22:53:00.003+08:00

每天看着天空，好美好美. 老天, 我及时才能变成天空? 望着心爱的人,守护他们. 及时我才能脱离这苦海, 得到一些平静... 好想念从前, 突然好想你... ...

望着天空和你在这草原上说话
牵着手你的手一直不放开它呀
你说你我爱你我的心已经融化
花瓣撒满地好像雪花

和你在的日子我们的爱不听话
抛开它留住它我们无法选择呀
只想你和你在一起一直到白发
我爱你这事实没变化

2009 Happy New Year

2008-12-31T07:32:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year
~2009~

I hope everyone will have a fruitful year.
Forget all the bad times and remember only the good.
Forgive those who does bad things to you.
Time is precious,
learn to treasure and cherish the people and things around you.
What have been done, have been done.
No use regretting it or blaming others.
Look towards the future, you will find that this is not the end of everything.
Be positive and have a right attitude.
Do the best you can in everything.
Reach your goals and stay happy...
God Bless and all the best to all of you.
My friends, family, relatives and all the people I know...

* 。 ` . *
* . \ | / . *
Happy New Year
~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~

My office..

2008-12-28T12:04:00.000+08:00

it was before christmas, whole company stay back to do the christmas tree.. haha.. nice hor.. i oso got contribute some hard work ok.. haha.. i love my job, i love my office.. i like the people there..
xD

自恋

2008-12-28T11:42:00.001+08:00

ok lar i very zi lian hor.. anyway this is juz 2 of all the photo i took that day.. i was at orchard nothing to do veri sian.. so start taking photo.. haha.. i become more pretty le... xD

2008-12-28T00:22:00.000+08:00

Merry Belated Christmas

Christmas eve(24/12/08)
In the morning reach office, prepared to play the game, The Christmas Gourmet Challenge. Took a cab down Bukit Merah, it cost me around 11 plus dollars. The chiong chiong chiong... We did not complete 8 books, therefore never win by 4pm. We are the last team to arrive back office.. haha xD
Then reach office, realised that only 2 teams manage to finish the 8 books. haha xD
Went back for gift exchange. Got a chocolate, mine was given to reece, one of my head. haha xD
Then went back home to eat and sleep. haha xD

Christmas(25/12/08)
wanted to sing kbox with gladys and gang, took 39, in the end found out that i took the wrong bus. went all the way to yishun.. haha.. so from yishun took a mrt back to bedok, have lunch then go home, then went to downtown to meet niang and sally, give gladys her lee hom thingy, her FBT and she pay me $22.90 for the pre-order. saw engeline with the new hairstyle tot is another friend of mine. haha xD saw jes and her bf and daryl.. then went off with them, walked to mrt together. took a mrt down to simei and play badminton with sally, wen feng, niang and me. soon after gladys join us to play. haha xD fun fun fun.. then all went home together except niang coz different direction. walked back home, bought dinner for family. gladys walked me home.. haha she emo make me emo also.. haha xD. Thats all for the day.
i thought i could give you a special gift, but i cant contact you. my prince where are you? you never even reply me a merry christmas this year.. i miss you deep deep.

today(27/12/08)
today is wen feng and zi shen 2nd day work. both beat me leh.. zi shen did 18 and he left at arnd 3.30pm. wen feng did 24 today.. so good right.. haha xD a man gave zi shen 100 bucks straight.. shock him haha.. he just came back from spain and bought me a chocolate from there... haha.. guai guai oo.. treated him drinks and he too treated me drinks.. haha.. today i do only 17 tix, struck for arnd 1 1/2 hr in the end still cannot hit 20 tix... it hurts me deep deep.. haha xD
took pay and left with wen feng.. came home eat dinner... tmr goin orchard to take my wu yue tian tix.. with felicia and her lao gong and dunno still can call who.. haha xD will see.. haha

i really miss you my darling.. why are you keeping a distance away from me? cant we continue to be a normal friend? please tell me your answer...

Miss Lonely is still finding Mr lonely... any one want to be her Mr Lonely? haha...

i shall upload pictures next time when i'm free.. haha yeah...

Short Story..

2008-12-19T22:02:00.000+08:00

Wings 的声音
Lyric by: P Joanne XY/Puay Puay

夜里的哭声好寂寞
刺痛着我的耳朵
这夜的星空好温柔
我却一个人堕落

Missing you是我的错
爱你爱到不像我
我只想再一次冷落
忘记你给我的快乐和伤痛

Eternal Wings
我的爱飞到你身旁
你是我所有的希望
但月下老人总是爱骗人
这红线绑得不稳
我对你从此绝望

Haven finish the song, puay puay say still want to continue..
work work work as usual, nothing special about my life.
meeting jiao people everyday.. haix.. numb le..
Angel want her freedom!!!

Seriously, I'm not hua chi, i just like to look at beautiful things..
so one of the things is shuai ge lor.. so simple right..
so stop saying i hua chi.. haha X)

I need a boyfriend..
I want a boyfriend..
I need the love and care..
Where is miss lonely de mr lonely?
haha X)

Sam Wang

2008-12-17T23:38:00.001+08:00

broken heartz

2008-12-17T23:17:00.000+08:00

i really don't know what people is thinking about me? Whats wrong with me? i really don't know..

i have my own mood too, you can't expect me to listen every time and say yes to every thing you say. If you want me to be that, then go find a robot to replace me. Even animals have feelings, it got its own good and bad times. I need a break, i really need a break. i feel like leaving this place for awhile and stop thinking about everything. Maybe i will feel better this way. Every thing is bulking me.. i need some peace, i really need some. the angel is dead and the demon is reborn. i have to control myself from spreading the wings because of you. But i want to be free, i want to be a hawk, a falcon, soar in the sky and enjoy. i want to get drunk again, i like the floating and nice feeling. Every good there is a bad, and every bad there is a good. There are good times and bad times. I only want to remember the good and not the bad, but what can i remember? there are more bad than good. God i want to change my life. God i really do. Why do you put me into this family? I tried to be good but no body understand my good intension. They only see me like a good girl turning bad, just because i talk to them about reborned hair, shorts, coloured hair... Hey whats wrong with all these??? I just want to be like any other people out there. I won't turn bad, why you all just don't trust me? I'm not convince enough by you telling me that you are my parent and you care for me. What is your care? taking away every thing i want and giving me things that i don't like. That is care uh? Fucking idiots. All i want is a bit freedom to get or do what i want to do. Is that very difficult? you still want to control what ever i wear, what ever i eat? I'm no longer a baby, i can take care of myself. I mean why you just cant give me this simple freedom? Everyone will be growing up, everyone will have different mindset. I hope you understand why i did not think what you thinking. We are different, so please understand and give me some space to breathe and choose. you have problems so do i, i also need to balance my feelings. can you just be more understandable? I just need that. Simple?

today was ok, work again ma.. nothing to type actually.. haha X)

oyasumi nasai..

signing off
P Joanne XY

炼狱天使第一章

2008-12-14T23:55:00.000+08:00

这是一个有钱有势的人的世界，一个物慾横流的时代！
众生茫茫，皆追名逐利。
主为了拯救世人，将天使降到人间。
天使对懵然众生道：“信我者，可得永生。”
然而众生不信，要将天使钉在十字架上烧死。
于是天使褪去洁白的羽翼，化身为恶魔降世。
诱惑众生道：“以汝之灵魂交换，可得永生。”
众生趋之若鹜。

was reading about this story called 炼狱天使on website lar.. just like reading any story books. the stories is very interesting and real. do check it out while you are free.. http://www.powanjuan.com/read_book.asp?id=3480

ok its getting late.. tomorrow still got work.. haha.. do well tomorrow.. yeah yeah yeah!!

good night my world.. i miss you..

I miss you my prince.. i miss you so badly this few days.. hope you are doing well :)

signing off
P Joanne XY

Work hard Play hard

2008-12-08T22:06:00.000+08:00

Went to sentosa yesterday..
first go harbour front mac to eat and wait for the rest..
oh ya at the beginning is meet kah gee and tamp mrt..
then go vivo together..
after everyone arrive, we went to vivomart to buy water..
then off we go to sentosa station..
spend $3 on the tic..
took pictures on the train..

nice nice..
water and the sky..
haha

wow.. reaching sentosa soon leh..
so excited..
haha :P

swim the whole afternoon..
haha
played ball
monkey in the sea??
haha
lost my spect coz drop into the sea.. wave wash away..
i think in the sand or dunno where le.. cnnt find..
haha.. see fate let me find back ma.. lol..

got sun burn..
argh.. irritating..

then went to bath..
waited for lyk 1 hour?! people bath so long de..
saw many ppl nake juz bath outside..
so brave..
i will if my body is nice. haha :)

then went to take train...
reach vivo city
ate KFC there..
then simin want to eat the big big ice cream that make ppl happy..
ya ya.. so i follow..
really make ppl happy..
the ice cream so pretty.
the price oso so pretty..
$13 for that ice cream..
haha
ex ex..

recommend ppl to eat..
White Dog Cafe.
Vivo City #02-131
ice cream : white dog madness

hot chocolate cake..
yummy do try it!!!

Simin with the ice cream..

then went home with kah gee by mrt..
so good he waited for the bus with me.. haha :)

memorable day with friends at work.. haha.. i will remember de..

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Today (8/12/2008)

go out field to tamp..
saw alot of people i know de..
lyk guan heng kor kor.. jane and her mother.. daniel.. and many more..
haha
rain rain rain..
i get so high that i keep bouncing around..
fun to work.. see shuai ge and work the same time.. haha
met a few today and ytd.. haha shuang.. haha

hope tmr is not a wet wet day..

i dun wan nags from the top sia.. haha..
i will do well tmr.. lol..

ppl arnd me.. north south east west.. i dun wan get kidney failure.. too sweet.. haha... :P

i wan to be in the sweet sweet mood too..!!!! THE SEASON OF LOVE IS COMING AND I DON'T HAVE PEOPLE PEI.. HAHA..

MISS LONELY STILL SEARCHING FOR HER MR LONELY..!!!!!!

think positive?!

2008-12-04T22:39:00.000+08:00

想念你让我觉得生活不再空虚
空气有你淡淡的香气
不想放弃只想一直走下去

忘了你也忘了自己
脑海都是与你的回忆
很想忘去却怕自己无法控制自己

我走在茫茫人海中寻找你的身影
你却没有留下任何痕迹
香气慢慢淡去泪掉在雨里
失望从何说起

my blog so emo meh? lol.. ok lar..
anyway..
work work work and play play play..
go fly kite everytime i go field.. bad example..
veri sian de at home..
go work oso sian..
haha..
nth to update oso.. so i will share something with you all..

JAPAN HOST CLUB SHUAI GE..!!! XD

ENJOY AND STAY POSITIVE
FOR YOU YOURSELF AND ALL THE SHUAI GE

I WANT TO GO JAPAN HOST CLUB AND BE A PRINCESS THERE..
HANDSOME AND KAWAII GUYS
WAITING TO ENTERTAIN EVERY GIRLS THAT ENTER...
ENJOY LIFE AND BE HAPPY..

!!!IT'S PARTY TIME!!!
XD

Me

2008-12-02T23:38:00.000+08:00

I hate to be alone, but some time i really need peace.
Fallen angel wanted to go back to heaven, father when is my turn?
I miss body temperature, I miss the texture of your hand? Why do you let it go so soon.
I miss your presence. I miss your voice and laughter. I even miss your coolness and your words.
Father give me a pair of wings so that I can fly to him. Let me be the sky so that everyday i can look at him. Let me be the wind so that i can be close to him. Let me be his shadow so that i can stick to him forever. Can time be rewind? Or should i just forget. Forget all the swears and promises I've made. Should I start anew or carry on like this? The more i think of you the more lonely i get. No one give me the blessing to be with you. Maybe i should just give up. Over is over, nothing can replace it. Saying it is easier than doing it. I lost the key to my heart, anyone out there can find me the key? I will never forget you, till the day i die and my spirit evaporates.

Today i rotted at home, singtel people come my house to fix mIo tv and upgrade my internet. Happy! Then start rotting at home. Watch don't know what whole day. Really nothing to upgrade...

Seeing couples around me again. I also want those feeling back again. Jealous, envy.. I'm all alone
Everyone have some one to accompany, who will want to follow a jinx. Lonely Christmas again this year.. Good luck to those with darlings. God bless you all. I still got my Jay darling and shao wei and other darlings to accompany me... So yeah you all go enjoy yourself ok.. This sun heard that the company going to sponser us to sentosa... cool.. I can enjoy my life at last..

Tomorrow is work day again. People out there, see you tomorrow...

Oyasumi nasai

signing off
P Joanne XY

working hard..

2008-11-30T23:44:00.000+08:00

I don't feel like saying so much about my life now.. everyday is the same old thing.. tomorrow need to work again.. haha.. went to bugis and tm with mom.. bought a pair of jeans.. 3 shoe.. haha.. 3 nail polish.. 1 nail remover.. haha.. alot of money sia..
i so guai ok.. i earn money i give 30 bucks to each parent.. haha i lose 60 bucks juz like this.. haha
lol..
tmr lunch all i pay ok.. so guai rite.. haha.. ok lar i will stop here continue tmr.. haha..
i will de..

still finding a perfect guy.. b4 christmas.. haha..

i miss you even more now.. why you never contact me? not even a hi.. i miss you..
i love you my prince.. why i become like this???

Seduction Day

2008-11-24T23:56:00.000+08:00

So early in the morning met puay and took bus 8 and bus 22 to work place. ok lar middle story i dun feel lyk saying.. but damn funny de.. haha :P
today go AMK to do... really nid to act cute in order to let the old uncle buy the tix sia.. haha.. idiot.. lol.. i onli sold 19 tic today. i wanted 30 leh.. haha.. lol..
ok lar get a lot of excuse from ppl not to buy.. lol so a bad day lar..
today got 2 new ppl following lor.. haha..
ok lar continue when i free..
i miss my trainer Tian Haur.. such a joker.. haha.. lol..

enjoy the music then..

oyasumi nasai..

i love stanley body so so much.. sexy.. haha

痛

2008-11-23T16:42:00.000+08:00

疯了，我真的疯了。你能够停止这一切吗？你能吗？你一天不吵，不来反我可以吗？我够多事了，你就饶了我好吗？
BITCH!我真的受够你了! Fuck off...
You are the one who make me don't feel like coming back home. Do you know i get this bad feeling every time i reach home. I will always tell myself, once in just shut yourself up. No more feelings for me... I'm numb, I'm deaf, I'm mute... All thanks to you! Prince once told me, no matter what, your family is important for you, you will have ti cherish them, stop saying about you hate this home and asking your parent for a divorce. But now i still thinks that divorce is the best method to stop all these. You two are not fit to be together thats all! If so, settle it yourself, I do not want to join in. I like the feeling of being drunk and you smile and walk like endlessly. So happy, and you feel like floating. God how long is my punishment on Earth. I feel lost and hopeless. Who can help me? Maybe I'm not fit to be in this world, at the beginning i should not be in this world, I'm being misplaced. I have no where to go. Anyone can tell me what i should do? 我真的很想逃避，但我能逃到哪里？快乐永远短暂，剩下的也只有悲伤。这世界的残酷，冰冷，让我好难受。我讨厌这一切的一切。有谁能带我走出黑暗，从见光明。This endless feeling is haunting me. What the Fuck! crap I don't like this at all. Oh Lord, save me my Lord!

Not everyone is bad. Not everyone is good. But why in your mind and thinking everyone is against you? What so bad about those people? What happen to you? Why adult are so childish, or only you are like this? I hate it! I really hate all these..!!!

Too many feeling to type into words..
Song can express more feelings than words..

The pain is too great for me...

Sometimes i just do not know whether I am smiling or crying. Happy or sad?

working hard..

2008-11-23T13:46:00.000+08:00

ytd was my 2nd day at work. went to thomson with tian haur and daniel. stuck between 2 guys, but fun lar, tian haur was veri funny the whole day, crapping away, now i know why his gf lyk him so much.. haha... but then he got irritated by some phone calls. haha.. ppl in another team fight. lol.. ok.. ytd do house to house, landed property. cool hor.. jealous ma, can see rich rich ppl.. haha.. then tian haur cnnt tahan so went to thomson plaza to rest, have some drinks and chat awhile. then start working again arnd 2.30pm outside the plaza.. nid to leave early ytd coz night got piao liang jie jie the wedding dinner. so i onli manage to sell 1 book.. haha my target is 2 book per day.. yeah!!

so went wif them arnd 4pm took a bus to ang mo kio, top up card then took mrt to braddel. then from there took 59 bus home.. haha.. reach home 5.30pm.. left home for dinner arnd 6.45pm.. haha
the wedding was nice and jie jie was so pretty.. now i got a piao liang jie jie and a shuai ge jie fu.. haha..
*PS: is she ask me to call her piao liang jie jie de.. haha..
took some videos.. next time then upload.. haha..

today going to rot at home.. nth to do so i goin to pei my com.. haha :) i love you my com darling..

tmr goin to work again. but got puay puay.. dunno go where.. haha.. i love this job so much..
smoker and vurgarities every where.. haha l0l..

tired-ness..

2008-11-21T23:35:00.000+08:00

okok so i start with 2 days ago... hmm..
ok i go TPRAWK last day..
go business school, interesting lor.. learn a lot of things..
then play some games.. haha.. then concert..
Daren from project superstar come to TP. and oso Gurmit Singh. haha
"singpore ok" and "dun forget the lyric"
ok after that is dinner. BUFFETS haha!! ok after that is Jam and Hop..
eat too full, then feel like vomiting.. so nv go until veri high.. but slowly become veri high and start jumping arnd.. haha crazy gurl.. then lunch is ok lar fry chicken and bread...haha ok lar oily food i dun lyk..
over all the thingy is fun and nice.. i really enjoy it..

ytd went for my job interview.. first stop go to paya lebar for a event promoter interview.. then go simei for a beauty shop to interview.. both ok lar.. dun lyk the beauty one goin to cancel the job.. prefer the paya lebar one.. haha so then went home lor.. btw ytd whole day is with puay puay.. haha so all the interview oso with her.. then she walk to my house here to take bus home..
then rot at home.. haha

today went for my event promoter orientation, my first project, sell donation tix for the charity organisation. sell finish one book of 15 tix ($10/tix) then can get 30 bucks of pay.. every sat get pay.. so today i earn 30 bucks bcoz i finish book... haha crazy and funny rite.. cheong so hard for money.. tmr goin to do at dunno place.. haha.. target oso 1 book or more.. haha.. ppl who are interested with the job can ask me. haha then can pei me work.. haha.. got shuai ge and oso can meet alot of ppl go different places.. haha.. fun and interesting job for ppl lyk to tok alot.. this job let you tok until you dun feel lyk toking.. haha.. flexible and pay wise is your skill of selling lor.. haha.. not onli this project more projects are coming so can sell other things oso... ppl there veri friendly and good.. lyk frenz frenz liao.. haha so cool lor.. working with teenages is better than working in adult places.. haha this job is fun and challenging.. you get to learn communicating skills and other impt things lar. you will have to experience it yourself then you will know.. ppl jiayou for working and earn money.. haha
today puay puay nv come.. phone her to di siao her..haha my trainer oso di siao her.. haha
sadded she cnnt go tmr.. nid to explain to boss again.. sadded.. you better come on monday or i will kill you.. haha so paiseh to say to boss you not going lor.. sadded.. tmr the shuai ge(s) will be veri sad de.. all wan to see puay puay haha..

tmr go to dunno place sell..HDB or landed property area.. jiayou jiayou jiayou!!!

will aload pictures when i free.. haha :P

ok thats all..

oyasumi..

signing off..
P Joanne XY

TPRAWKS

2008-11-18T20:47:00.000+08:00

Today morning wake up very early, why?! GOT TPRAWKS ma!! but i woke up late, ask felicia to come my house wait for me, then we go tp together.

first thing, go tp register, then got into "Blue Hoodie" group 6. went to the wrong door, people started to shout AFRO! AFRO! haha then i look at felicia what the crap they shouting about..haha
so first got dance then talk crap about the apply poly thingy.. then we go to 2 lab, one do starch experiment another one do virus vaccine. ok lar quite fun. then go have lunch.. idiot felicia cnnt finish her chicken wing and egg nv give me, i hungry leh.. ok then go dragon boat.. fun fun fun.. tiring oso.. then play until wet wet.. go to some area with high elements.. play some games.. haha.. then YEAH!!! Hip Hop dance lesson.. fun lar but still cnnt get the steps and beat.. haha :)
then then play with the tp dance.. crap i dunno the dance steps and nid to learn fast fast.. haix.. then the tp school song.. i really hope our school song can change to that.. haha

change to green and gold, green and gold, we will keep our school flag flying.. not bad rite.. got action then morning sing le sing and dance so shuang.. so interesting and creative.. first sec skool to use this ba.. haha nice nice..
oh oh.. after the song we go home.. then took bus 8 with felicia..
PS: sorry lar i dunno got 2 more bus behind ma.. i oso dun lyk to squeeze.. :( ps lar..

so tmr go tp again... tmr got the dun forget your lyrics and other performs..tmr is business school day.. haha.. then night go back school for MRC camp then go see sun rise.. haha :)

*What the crap happen to your? do you need a 心里医生? can you stop all this.. I'm irritated by it, I hate this.. STOP STOP STOP!!!! I NEED MY PEACEFUL LIFE..!!!*

thats all for today..

signing off
P Joanne XY

Sian-ness..

2008-11-17T22:24:00.000+08:00

Yesterday(16/11)

woke up early coz mom say wan to go singtel fast fast and eat lunch. in the end i ok le she hor suddenly volcano erupt then time delay. lol lame.. nvm.. childish adult.. then went to singtel to ask about the recontact of internet, then go eat lunch. mom wan to find dental clinic, so went to near library there.. see see she wan to go the Lee & Lee dental surgery.. then walk walk awhile, wanted to do hair then mom disagree.. idiot! i cnnt be pretty uh.. dunno wat she thinking.. i cant reborn, cant colour, cant have pet, cant where short, cant stay over night.... and many more cant crap... WTF i hate it!! you think you are a queen or what??? you cant even trust your own daughter.. Fuck!! ok ok too much of that then continue my life... went to megacourt and ikea instead.. see see until veri late.. bought a toy dog(70cm long) big big.. then go home. i exchange my hair and pet dog for a toy dog.. nvm better than nothing.. i will get all that when i older.. so buy bread home... reach home.. i really hate it.. i dun lyk to go home bcoz of all the bad memories.. I'm scare ok.. I scare of losing.. i hate this.. FUCK i hate the world..!!! thats all..
talk talk with rayson friend, andre, shuai ge 1个, talk very long about jobs.. then ya nothing le..

today(17/11)
Rot at home.. morning mom call singtel for the internet.. get the 39.90/mth plan.. haha so happy.. so settle until afternoon nothing to do le.. tidy up my worksheet.. then find jobs.. call call no one ans.. so angry.. then pack bag for tmr.. crap dun feel lyk saying.. queen order again.. shit i hate it.. I'm 16 not 6!!!!!!! ok ok rot at home..

tomorrow plan..
go felicia house then go tp tgt.. maybe ltr go bbq.. the next day, go tp again.. then go skool for mrc camp.. haha.. fun fun.. then dunno le..
i hope queen dun ahem..
FUCK I HATE IT!!! FEEL LIKE xxxx TO HER?!

bu shuang in alot of things.. i hate all these..

anyway i dreamt about jay darling last night.. dreamt i went his house.. haha :)

wo zhen de hao xiang ni.. hao xiang hao xiang.. hao kong xu de shen huo.. ma le..

Yama-Pi

2008-11-15T23:20:00.000+08:00

Kawaii song.. Kawaii Yamapi.. pledge for eternal love..

Hot Yamapi.. I love Hot HOt Hot Yamapi..

Daite Senorita, tsuyoku hanasanai de...

seishun amigo

Hot baby.. sexy Yamapi..

He can dance so well.. scream and shout for his sexy-ness..

silly Yamapi.. is he drunk or what??

young yamapi.. KAWAII NE

Back to God love

2008-11-15T21:28:00.000+08:00

me and cheryl

plaza singapura :)

today woke up at 8am.. so early.. need to go church ma.. haha :)
10.45 plus go out.. reach church around 12pm..
wear new shoe.. haha

ok today church service is very interesting.. but i don't feel like saying everything.. haha.. today is Pastor Brendon, a very smart guy. got PhD is don't what i forget le.. haha.. something Atomic Bomb de.. haha aiya very smart jiu dui le..
after church go have lunch with caregroup people.. then go for meeting..
then go plaza singapura walk walk see see with angel and cheryl.. then go home lar.. lor..

i really want to share this.. I lost my poka dot bible a long time ago and i just could not find it. thought i will just bring my old bible to service today instead. suddenly i feel an energy, like God want to say something to me. "Xin yi its there, its there you remember?" then all of a sudden i rush to my spoilt refregirator then see see the top don't have, open the first door.. take out a box of art stuff.. and thank God i saw my bible is behind the box!!! I'm so surprise.. i tying to find it for so long and now i found it.. haha.. Oh Lord Thank you God!! so i happily that the bible and my notebook out.. haha :)

back to Holy ground. back to God love.. I feel so great!! Thanks God so much..

i guess i will stop here today.. tomorrow going out with mom to settle my internet stuff.. maybe will play badminton with xinyi.. haha ok then..

oyasumi my world..

signing off
P Joanne XY

My Feeling..

2008-11-14T18:31:00.000+08:00

Dear God what happen to me?
I feel tired, yet i should be feeling relax.
I just can't feel the happiness...
突然累了
Maybe this song will express my feeling..

I'm just tired of all these..
i just want to have some peace..
leave me alone..

What is the feeling?
alright lets be true to ourselves, ok myself.
I feel the loneliness around me.
thats not what i want.
i need someone?
who who who?
i felt the urge of finding someone to settle down
to feel love? someone to accompany?
i just do not want to feel the loneliness..
sometime i just feel that i need someone..
happy times are always short
once alone, i feel the strange feeling of loneliness..
doesn't i always want to be alone and have peace?
but i hate the feeling of being alone sometime..
how ironical
who can help me now?

Last time wearing..

2008-11-13T22:04:00.000+08:00

me and puay puay :)
last time i going to wear my school uniform..
i become more normal now.. haha last time pictures are ugly..
(took on bus 18 today..)

我自由了吗？

2008-11-13T21:39:00.000+08:00

SHE - 安静了

小天好帅哦…

Ok end of the stupid 'o' level le.. happy now? no no no.. too bored.. haha :P

Bio p1 today, my last paper. ok quite easy? 8am to 9am was so happy after the whole exam ended.
went to Mac with puay puay, she want to buy breadfast. took 18 together. then reach home.
(still boring lifestyle.. haha) --- end of part 1 haha :P

reach home and started playing com, but don't play what.. slack until 10.30am. Gladys suddenly want early. rush to tampines MRT by 11.30am, after preparing to go out.
--- end of part 2 :P

went to bugis together. first stop eat! could not go to the hawker center to eat coz raining. so went to Yoshinoya!!! haha.. so many people lor.. but hack care.. buy student meal and then eat lar.. l0l.. went to the toilet, come out saw kee hou and other people, then benjamin and other people. haha unlucky or lucky? lol.. went to the 3rd storey children arcade to play.. very fun!! lol ok lar lame and childish but i do enjoy it.. lor.. then went to another arcade, the normal one that i go.. play the basketball machine for 2 rounds. shit! i beat my highest record but i nv went into the 3rd round. sadded.. after playing awhile went to bugis street to shop shop.. see see talk talk a lot of things.. 大小姐bought a watch, i bought a watch and a pair of shoe.. haha(so now i really no more money) Bugis street a lot to see see de.. shuai ge also have haha.. my fav!!! saw people tattoing.. not painful meh? ahh-beng and ah-lian a lot but nvm I'm one of them? pi arh!! i guai kia ok.. lor.. then went back to bugis junction b1 then walked to mrt station. guess who i saw in front of me? ying xiu and her stead.. so unlucky sia saw them.. ok nvm they took another mrt so not my business.. gladys and me same sia know that take mrt need to choose cabin. walk around to see where got shuai ge then take the cabin.. lor.. no shuai ge today sadded :( mrt-ed back to tampines, gladys want to buy nail polish. saw rayson on the way.. wow he become shuai le.. lor.. ok lar better only, both of us agreed haha.. lor..(拖大小姐下水) Missha close!!!! OMG so went to TheFaceShop to buy.. raining so went to interchange to bus home. wanted to take 39 so can be with gladys, but instead i took 292, lazy to climb stairs... haha:P
--- end of part 3... lol

come home nothing to do.. slpt for 1 hour then bath and eat dinner.. play com.. nothing le.. search for job.. haha.. sian.. no nid to study oso sian de..haha

ok then nothing to write i think i will stop here..

*there are feelings that i do not want to put it into words.. let the feelings remain unsaid..*

oyasumi my dear world..

signing off
P Joanne XY

Congratz!!

2008-11-13T17:48:00.000+08:00

FREEDOM AT LAST
!!!

IT'S THE END OF
'O' LEVEL

NO MORE SCHOOL
NO MORE UNIFORM
NO MORE BORING LESSONS

CONGRATZ TO ALL
SEC 4 STUDENT

YOU HAVE MADE IT
TO THE END
OF THE WAR
!!!

FREEDOM
PLAY TIME
SHOPPING
AND MANY MORE
FUN AND LAUGHTERS...

:D

Prince 王子

2008-11-12T21:21:00.000+08:00

Prince 王子
新歌MV
(New song MV)
对不起
(Sorry)
歌手:黑糖群侠传专辑:电视原声 - 黑糖群侠传

多久了沒有你的消息
上一封簡訊是星期幾
又錯過了與你的約定
對不起, 真的不是故已
有時後沒辦法陪著你
你總是對我說沒關稀
放不下我對你的任性
對不起不該讓你傷心
有時後, 你會讓讓我
體諒我, 大男人發作
有時後, 你會裝做不懂
默默的留一些空間給我
這些事情其實我一直都藏在心裡

請你原諒我不懂逗你開心
請你原諒我不懂聽你的心
回想著過去
我學著讓你更愛惜
別賭气, 別任性, 別放棄
說聲對不起

有時後, 你會讓讓我
儘何我, 大男人發作
有時後, 你會裝做不懂
默默的留一些空間給我
這些事情其實我一直都藏在心裡

請你原諒我不懂逗你開心
請你原諒我不懂聽你的心
回想著過去
我學著讓你更愛惜
別賭气, 別任性, 別放棄
請你相信我, 我更加珍惜
請你相信我, 我會呵護著你
小小的愛情, 這是我最大的幸运
疼愛的, 想念的都是你
請你相信, 一個這樣的我
請原諒我, ho ~
對不起, 對不起

Done by: LiM HwEE . Lex ™

我爱死王子了:)请大家支持他的新戏和新歌…
I love you Prince. Everyone please support Prince new drama series and song~

Boo~ -.-

2008-11-12T17:29:00.002+08:00

Today is Chemistry paper 1

Not very bad lar. Hope everything turns out right then.
No Jobs!! ARGH!!

No mood to study, forcing myself to read the notes!! I hate exams!!

Counting Down
1 More Day
To Freedom!!!
One more paper left to conquer!!
8am to 9am
I can't wait...

Will continue if got things to update..
haha...
emo-ing therefore nothing to type..
haha...

Hates

2008-11-11T16:09:00.000+08:00

All peaceful and happily ever after? Bull shit! I just don't get it. Why you could not understand me. What i like and what i hate. You always tell me that, if i ask you to stop saying it you stop, i don't like it and i will scold you if you continue, i don't care whether is it in the public. And now what senorita? If you dislike people like this, you are one yourself do you know that. Stop giving people lectures or teaching when you are one of the kind. You can get angry but not other people. Fuck! You think so? You think you are so superior that everyone have to listen to you, cannot get angry of you? Fuck off! You are not ok! No one is by the way. So don't think that way. What lies deep under people heart can never be seen, what happen behind close doors nobody know. Don't judge a book by its cover. So you think I'm that pure and innocent. I'm no longer the cute and innocent girl beside you, let you scold and shout. I'm not your slave or dog. Stop treating me like this. Stop it! Stop scolding dad and shout at him! Who you think you are? Bitch! I know people will start to say me that I'm not filial, you can't scold your mom a bitch. I will stop, i will, if you stop too. stop being like you are the boss of the family. We shouldn't live under your shadow. I will not! I will not! I will not become you! Stop thinking that you know everything! Stop thinking that all people are bad! Stop thinking that everyone is against you! Stop taking things so seriously! If you change all this you will find that the world is such a nice place. Because of you i changed. I change to be stronger, i start to put on a mask. I learn how to control my emotions, i learn how to tell lies. That is who i am now! You have change me and it cannot be change back! Please update yourself! Please learn to control your emotions. Oh God why you put me into this family! SAVE ME O LORD! Pressure! I have my own too, so stop adding more burdens on me. Stop All This Now!!! Fuck i hate all this!

yesterday was quite all right. early in the morning went with mom to make a bank account for myself. she transfer 100 bucks into my account. take from my angbao money she gave me. I cheated from her 40 bucks more. My angbao was only 60 bucks this year but i told her 100 bucks. haha!! things happen at the bank, don't feel like mentioning. then went to eat lunch, then walk walk around to see whether got ring ma.. then wait for shu ying call and mrt-ed to Bedok. met shu ying and her sister. went to bugis for job interview. waited for a very long then our turn. quite scary but still ok. although i miss out some points. then mrt-ed back with them. came home to slack haha.. I hope everything turn out right! Money i need money..

ok today nothing great too.. really nothing.. whole day rotted at home.. counting down 2 more days.. TO FREEDOM!! mom is getting more and more irritating nowadays.. keep scolding people you know XXXXXX whenever she like, even though it is not my fault.. scold me for what.. whatever fucker.. I'm use to it le..

Missing You every night.. Missing You already.. Please come back to my dreams again.. I miss you..

Oh ya if you are horney or just want to know the latest fashion of sex and other interesting facts about sex you can go to this website: http://www.1trackmind.com/ or watch some of their shows, its quite interesting and educational. NOT DIRTY ok!!!

so what now? post songs again? ok..
Missing You by Fan Yi Chen i know i post before, but this is the mv. If you think that the song is still not that sad, try watching the mv. Sadder!! How nice when you can die together with your love ones and stay together forever...

another great mv by SHE
沿海公路的出口

Alone

2008-11-09T21:25:00.000+08:00

Alone again.. I really hate it.. I hate to be alone..

讨厌一个人的世界　厌倦了这种生活　有谁能来救我　带我走出去

Dad not home, the house become super quiet..

I'm really getting bore at this.. I don't want to be alone.. How many times i must say..!!!

Mood swinging again.. swinging from tree to tree haha >.<

tomorrow i going to go to the bank to make a bank account.. finally.. haha
need it for work or shopping lol.. to save money.. haha

today went to chem tuition early in the morning.. all the way to chinatown..
went with Tomoe(my Japanese sinapore friend+tuition mate), walk to simei mrt and took a mrt with her.. talk talk talk.. no space to sit so stood there until reach Outrum Park.. sadded..
then tuition.. 80% go in.. 20% look at don't know what.. so tired.. haha teacher asked me question i don't know how to answer cause never concentrate.. ask tomoe for the answer kana heard by teacher, teacher not happy le.. sad :( no more excuses.. is my fault i should just focus.. gomenasai.. then took a mrt back with tomoe also.. walk home from simei..

come home nothing to do..

missing you.. 今晚什么气氛让我这么的想你..

so ok nvm.. i will put songs instead.. haha.. enjoy people..

oyasumi nasai :)

good luck for those taking phy paper 1 tmr..!!!!

signing off
P Joanne XY

Sweet Hiro..

2008-11-08T23:25:00.000+08:00

Hiro why are you shy today? The sky is so beautiful today.. the pictures is not that nice compare with the real thing.. Hiro you are so kawaii X)
Night falls again.. Hiro you are there to accompany me.. Arigatou Hiro for your hugs.. ne

today was boring.. rotted at home.. sad.. :(
emo-ing..
Enjoy the time talking with Hiro... he sound kind of high today haha.. then he went off..
talk with gladys abit on the phone.. then nothing to do.. talking with rayson now on msn..
wasted my time on dramas instead of studying.. regreted.. haha :(

that was my life.. boring..

mom was crazy again.. i guess volcano is going to erupt again..
Dad going Malaysia tmr and will be back most probably on tue... for some relatives wedding..
i could not go due to my exams.. sad.. i really want to enjoy myself..

Shao wei bdae is getting nearer.. haha

now i got thai penpal, singapore penpal, japanese penpal, australia penpal..

been busy chatting on msn and email with my penpals..
i got 2 japanese penpal chatting on email everyday(so cool)
3 japanese penpal on msn
1 thai
1 aust
and a few singapore.. on msn..

Miss Lonely finding her Mr Lonely.. still waiting and finding..

ok nothing to type..

oyasumi my world..
cya tmr..

signing off
P Joanne XY

Dreams..

2008-11-08T16:48:00.000+08:00

I'm going to make this song my wedding song no matter what, I love this song so much. A love vow between my Love one...

(I do swear that I'll always be there. I'd give anything
and everything and I will always care. Through weakness
and strength, happiness and sorrow, for better, for worse,
I will love you with every beat of my heart.)

From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on

How many silent years gone
Of gazing at the infinte sky
Seeing you smile, in light of eve
Left in me, a distant memory

How many times have I tried
To make a forlorn tear hide
Thinking of you, a caressing ray
Softly kissing my pain away

Heavenly days, in yearn of our love
Ever changing with the sky above
Azure blues, your joy everywhere
Greyish hues, I sense your despair

Bowing low, braving the cold
Seeking your tender heart to hold
Lonely nights, dreaming of you
A glistening star flying through

Left to wane, a broken heart
The sky your smile, a delicate art
No more tears, just hopes every day
For you've driven all sadness away

Dare Yori Mo Daisuki Dayo

Have you ever imagine or dream of how your wedding should be like?
How a man should propose to you?
Roses, rings and romantic words...

I dream that my beloved will propose to me at a beach during sunset...
Secretly tell me to wear my best outfits and giving me clues where to go...
When i reached, i will see roses.. and my beloved dress in white will walk towards me..
In his hand, a bouquet of white and red roses..
He then kneel down and present me the ring...
"Will you marry me? I love you.."
I nodded and let him put the ring on my finger..
He stood up and hug me in his arms..
So warm, that is where i belong..
Watching the sunset and listen to the waves and wind..
How nice and romantic.. simple yet memorable..

The wedding place should be white with pink and purple..
With a little silver and gold..
I ride a white horse, to save money i walk in with my father or someone important to me..
As I walk towards my beloved, he smile..
My hand are then give to my beloved as he walk with me to the pastor..
"I do" "I do"
Exchange rings and kisses..
Rose petal scattered on the ground..
How nice..
We walk out of the church and into a car..
Prepare for our next destination..

Is this the type of wedding you dream of?
Be a princess for a day..
Able to be with your prince forever..
When is the day for you and me to walk on this red carpet?
Who is that lucky prince?

My Story

Life

A simple blessing..

Disappointment..

Disappointment

suck juice day...

Whats wrong with me?

Last day of school for semester 1.2

吃醋

树的心愿

Unlucky...

Anata no koto wo kangaeteiru

2010 First blog

Urge

I miss you...

Rubbish Bin

Fate

a simple prayer

guardian angel

yeah!!!!

life really do suck..

2.16AM

random..

hmmm...

hmmm...

I'm thinking...

sian-ness,,,

Wonders...!!!

My feelings now..

Meow..

Time..

Poly life

A Fun But Tiring Day..

I'm Bored~~

Rest In Peace King Of Pop

Strength

shopping and eating

死亡

YAY!

New Life

I believe

My dream

Normal

Happy Birthday

Long time no POST

Happy and sad day...

不够勇敢

Dandelion's Promises

People request

想

Just

世上只有杰伦好

Quizes again...

Lonely Celebration

说爱我

Boys over flowers OST

innocent love..

My new darling...

Filmography

Career

External links

Wet and Happy day...

My quiz results

missing you..

Happy Chinese New Year!!!! 2009

晴天娃娃

Party

My Darling Jay

The Angel

Sky

2009 Happy New Year

My office..

自恋

Short Story..

Sam Wang

broken heartz

炼狱天使 第一章

Work hard Play hard

think positive?!

Me

炼狱天使第一章